我的世界

So many Goodbye

2010-12-31T17:33:00.002+08:00

The Year 2010 is ending in the worse I can think of.........

Bye 2010...........

Super Random!

2010-11-02T21:23:00.001+08:00

Counting down 2 more days to end of IPP! Jiayou and CHIONG all the way without looking back...hope I can do it =)

2010-09-12T22:03:00.001+08:00

I'll stop crying from now on. Each drop of Tears that I bottle up will become the motivation and power to support me to move on each step, no matter what's ahead on the path!

I'm still SINGLE

2010-08-09T00:05:00.004+08:00

It's study break, and today is NATIONAL DAY!
Happy birthday Singapore!

It's kind of funny to blog this, but i just see a need to protect my friend reputation.
I'm still SINGLE, still enjoying the FREEDOM of being alone.
A boy + a girl ≠ (not equal to) BGR
So please stop acting smart thinking everything in your mind definitely right.

Nation birthday = everybody birthday
After a week of break and cool down, thanks to the fever, I understand more things. Yes, everything should come to an end. Quote from a classmate, “你走你的阳光道，我走我的独木桥”

Honestly speaking, I still don't know what had happened, but I think it really doesn't matter anymore. =) Yeah, sound so "copy cat" but at least it something I agreed too (no conflict finally) LOLx...

However the reasons are different. I don't need someone to scold me "fucker" behind me without telling me I did something wrong first. I don't like to be accuse of "testing people patient" when I don't know I'm doing so. I don't need someone to tell around "how bad i'm" cause I know well i'm not perfect and no one can be perfect to everyone. I'm not going to throw away my personality and SOUL to cater to anyone "likeness" but I know i'll learn from each sentence to be a better off person in my way, and that's my motto. I'm a straightforward person, and maybe due to that my words can be hurting...but at least I know I really mean no harm and not backstabbing. True friends of mine know me well and will tell me my problems face-to-face in layman terms.

Lastly, I going to be "copy cat" again. Nothing else going to affect me, I'm still who I'm. I will do my best for everything, go ahead and say I'm competitive I wanna be a winner. Cause I dare to admit, " Yes I want to a winner and I want to do well, for myself and my family and all the aunties uncles that had encouraged me" I'm not going to back out and let any of them down. Just like you "want to make your family feel proud by wearing that graduation gown"

Alright, I shall end here with a bless " May everyone do well in the exam 3weeks later, also the upcoming IPP" =)

2010-08-05T22:43:00.001+08:00

IT's STUDY BREAK!
Nothing better than this...
The last holiday I going to have before I graduate from Poly...

Setting my soul free

2010-08-01T01:57:00.007+08:00

"High up and high down. " ------------HEY HEY HEY! STOP REPEATING THE SAME OLD STORYLINE...Babe it's really boring, something else pls!

"Alright....I shall not bored everyone with all the 'traditional' stories. I shall just share the ending of the story... and here it goes..................................................."

HORRAY! THANKS THANKS THANKS. I GOT MY NEW HIGH UP AGAIN. EXTREMELY HIGH HIGH HIGH! DUN THINK I'M MAD, I JUST FIND BACK THE MYSELF, THE "ME" IN SECONDARY SCHOOL. I TRULY GRATEFUL TO SOMEONE HELP ME FIND BACK THE FEEL OF HATE...IT'S GOOD TO HATE SOMEONE, I WONDER WHY I DECIDE TO BURY THAT EMOTION YEARS BACK. IT'S REALLY STUPID, AND I'M GLAD I GOT IT BACK NOW!

BY THE WAY, I JUST DISCOVER ANOTHER "ME" INSIDE MY SOUL. I ACTUALLY ENJOY SKIPPING CLASS JUST LIKE MAJORITY OF THE TEENAGERS. I ACTUALLY LOVE DOING LAST MINUTE WORK, AND I FINALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT MS AMANDA YEE HAD SAY IN THE PAST. SO SORRY FOR MY SLOWNESS. NOT ONLY THESE, I ALSO FULLY UNDERSTAND CAT-JIE FEELINGS WHEN SHE WAS IN POLY. COOL...I SAY SORRY TO HER NOW BECAUSE OF THOSE "ACT SMART" COMMENDS I MADE IN THE PAST. I CAN BE LIKE ANYONE ELSE..AND I GOING TO BE LIKE THAT...(hmmm i can't say from now on cause i already started!) TILL END OF POLY......................

YIPEE! 3 CHEERS FOR MYSELF. I SHALL LEARN TO LOVE MYSELF MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE AND ANYTHING ELSE.....REALLY THANKS SOMEONE WHO MAKE ME SEE ALL THESE BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE FOR ME TO TRY....hahas

---------------------------Oyeah, this ending sound much more better than the best, release the soul from all the locks and not adding more weights to it. Keep it up =D

ENOUGH WITH ALL THE NONSENSE

2010-06-12T17:56:00.007+08:00

Blogging - even since I attended the seminar of Ms Patricia I stopped, as I fully understand the power of this new media. Today, I'm back to post this entry is simply because I wish that my PEM- Ms Karen Chia, Course Manager - Mr Phan and all the tutors of my class - Ms Lena Yeo/Mr Ramesh/ Mr Lee Kheng Mun, anyone of them can track here and read it.

Seriously, I had never feel so angry and feel like going to the all the tutors and scream at them about their decision - transferring a student into our class at our most important academic year. How can they do such thing to our class? Just by looking at the DMK students chart, it so obvious that our class is the worst among all the 4. Yet they still transfer a student who need "special" care and giving us more trouble. Why? It is because the initial class he in is the TOP class so do not want him to affect the overall performance of that class? At the same time we go on to be the bottom also okay?

Honestly speaking I see the changes of my fellow classmates after the TEP, I guess most of them really wish to do well and graduate by next year. Alright I shall not say it as if I'm representing all my classmates.

Just to be specific, I'm so "lucky" to be in the same project group with this student for 3 modules (Consumer Behavior/ International Business/ Marketing Research), and just 1 single project he already start giving us problem. Firm email with clear instructions for him is a "STRESSING" command. The on and off attitude of committing in the project cause the whole group to be in total confusion. Tutor seem to thought that we are not giving this fellow a chance to do work when we already tried our best to work thing out with him even till the every last minute.

I can understand that there bound to be freeloader in every project team, it's a matter of how 1 handle that teammate(s) and is about leadership skill etc. But now besides monitoring and working for good grades, we got to do double BACKUP plan and no just be thoughtful we still have to be extreme BE CAREFUL when communicate with this student. Tutors are you going to tell us is it an additional training for our "INTERPERSONAL SKILL"?

I understand that you might say "If you don't accept him, you think others will? Give him a chance assist him...blahblahblah..." Can anyone please tell me will you moderate our grades because we are spending extra time to assist this student and might cause the poor performance of our report and presentation? Come on we are just students, you can't expect us to handle all as if "NO BIG DEAL"!

I need an answer! I know my wish of tutor to read this post is almost 0% but I really need to express this out before I go crazy. Personally, I admit that I got no high EQ so don't expect me to be Great Sane. I also don't have Good IQ so I definitely will not have spare time to entertain this person anymore.

Alright I shall end here. Anyway, LECTURERS AND TUTORS I'll be visiting all your office soon before I also suffer from DEPRESSION AND COMMIT SUICIDE!

Thanks!

Movie!!

2010-05-28T22:16:00.003+08:00

Wow... i guess i supposed to be studying for the ICAs that going to happen on the next 2weeks, or research and writing on reports that had to hand in soon....At least doing some tutorials which is the basic that had to be complete weekly.

However I'm having a movie marathon just because i feel like. It's all so wrong, but i just let it happen. Bad! Watched the "Jennifer's body" which damn gross for some parts, now the "twilight". It's kind of amazing the feeling remains the same no matter how many times i had watched this show, simply loving it.

Okay, don't think i have time to go on with much movie. Just had a nice chat about my sis new "lamb" .... Ending here, ~ciaos~

心血来潮

2010-05-21T00:56:00.003+08:00

许久又没更新这日记了。今晚心血来潮想写些什么，但心里根本不知道要写什么。

开学了，同学们都异口同声说感受到年三的压力。老实说，我真的没有感到什么特别的压力。可能是因为我从工院的第一年就没松懈过，神经紧绷程度已经到了极点吧。虽然说我没有特别压力，但周昭的变化我还是有感觉到的。而当大家都再努力的想争取更优越的成绩时，我竟然有了放慢脚步的冲动。我想我是疯了。。。

一个多月前，我还在懵懵懂懂的只为高GPA活着。眼光实在是短的没药救！多谢一位友人，她点醒了我是时候为自己的理想前进。我很惭愧，当时的我有理想但却从没想过那是否可行，要如何成真！如今的我算是想清楚我要的是什么了，也有规划要如何去实现。但首先，得戒掉FB那害人不浅的社交网站！（目标6月15日只前。。。每日只能花1个小时上那网页！！）

日常功课，专题作业，温书。。。都必须天天做！不能再临时抱佛脚了。
语文！我得让英文水平进步，华文水平恢复以往的程度！今年内要学会多１－２个新的语文，现在已经开始学日语！　＝Ｄ

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星期一我终于去看中医了！日复一日，我总有找不完的理由不踏出那一步。随着离开校园的日子越来越近，我真的不能忍受缠着我１２年的问题跟着我进入人生的另一个旅程。那两位医师说了很多我不明白的专业词，等了两个小时结果只在看病室待五分钟。＝（　现在我正在积极地戒口，不吃海鲜，不吃鸡。。。避免吃辣。。。真要我的命！可我绝不放弃。。。我要撑下去！

最近对于感情上的问题真是多。安慰，出点子，给意见，鼓励。。。什么都有！但我还是不明白那是什么鬼东东，能把人变得不正常。。。也让一些人有“超人”的力量。。。对我而言只有三个字来形容 -- 好可怕！！！也有一些自称“关心我”的朋友一直鼓励我找个伴。。。也有好友陪我打赌在限定的期限内我会不会跟男生交往。。。也有真心真正了解我的支持我保持我的原则。。。还有我那可爱的爸爸最近一直希望我能打扮自己然后出去“电”人。。。zzz 我哪来的魅力阿？莫名其妙，害我哭笑不得。。。

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哇！好像写太多了。。。天亮还得参加三姑的毕业典礼。。。近期内应该不会有时间跟新，所以再见了。。。ciaos~~~

(to phyllis: hahas, i keep to my promise...chat chat soon!)
(to hazel & juan: MEET meet....soon around june can? missing you 2...and HAZEL u owe me ice-cream dun try think i'll forget k!!!)

Short summary

2010-05-13T02:03:00.004+08:00

Wednesday! Morning checked that bloody result for last semester, TEP result as expected no A- got a B+ for that bloody 24credits modules...PM got an A- happy as i expect that...BUT a B+ for CS, how i wish i can know where did that 4marks go to...=c

Noon was cool, as my 3姑 that noisy corinne came back to school and lunched with liping and me. Prawn noodles were yummy with LOTS of chilli. (oops! i'm not suppose to eat tt!) Corinne make me paid 70cents for her ice-kachang because of a stupid bet!

Meeting! Funny...Silent...Weird...hahas, don't know what to say. Whatever, juz wish that everything goes well when time comes.

Training, I did my best today with my ankle guard on. Actually I'm just trying to do 1 last experiment, and yes the result is just like what i expected. Days drawing nearer again...
Skipped PT as I know I sure can't do it. zzz....

Home! it's a wow, with a phone call, 3 msn conversations and a super sms. Seriously I'm tired now, but i yet planned to sleep. Lucky tomorrow only 1 hour lesson, but i can predict the number of stuff i can do will be tons! Jiayou lar...love myself to live on ^^

Mother's Day 2010

2010-05-11T23:49:00.005+08:00

Whee~~~ this is a late update of Mother's day event.
9 May is very special date which I kept forgot every year, or too young to remember. However as it falls on Mother's day this year, it's a must for my family to had a fun celebration. Before recording the whole day memory, I must first say 9 May is my parents' anniversary. 28th year after that day ^^

Well, I had a bad night on 8 May as I had to force myself to finish the bloody Consumer Behavior & International Business tutorials. So I end up resting after 3am, and my sis even better...she came back after i rest. Hence my whole family spent the entire morning SLEEPING ^^

Noon, dilly dally as usual...my family's standard operation process. Lunched at Geylang' Curry Fish-head coffee shop. Papa sabotage us by ordering lots of food, Cat-jie and Mummy can't ate much and I had to be the "rubbish bin" finish up everything.

Next, mummy wanted to buy something so went down to chinatown. A no-planned trip to the 佛牙寺. Nice place, and I had a good time laughing at Cat-Jie for her weird attire which from head to toes against the regulations of entering the temple. HAHAHA!!!

Suntec-City was the next on list. The favourite place mummy love every time go shop shop-- Fountain of Wealth. Went at a wrong time, so we can't enter the fountain. The security guard told us to return 1hr later. 1 hr what to do leh? Well, we went to shop and see all the restaurant around the fountain. Paused at a Jap restaurant to see a skinny lady using her skillful hand to make the Sobe noodle. It's so damn cool...and look yummy too. ^^

About time to report back to the fountain! Got a tourist group there wanted to chiong in, but the super nice security guard who managed to recognize mummy gave us the priority to enter and help blocked the foreigners. Well, this small act make my mummy happy whole night lar. 知足快乐 ^^

Wanted to go get our car, and we simply can't find the carpark we came from, go another 1& half round to search for the exist. Proceed on to AMK hub. Shop shop, Cat-jie bring mummy go to the AMK outlet to see friend, and follow by Cat-Jie purchasing time. Buy 2 skirts from cotton-on, a bag from "blahblah" store. And i wanted to buy the carebear for mummy but bloody lousy AMK hub dun sell it! Got to get it somewhere SOON! =X

Dinner at Old Upper Thomson Road. Well, lunch time food haven't fully digested. BUT looking at all the tempting food, I just can't stop. And mummy appetite still "zzz" so I end up have to eat 1&half share of food. The biggest gain of the day for me = 好饱好饱好饱。。。^^

Alright Pictures of the day!

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Side track: I put on clip clip earrings and wear heels out, trying to be a "girl". End up, my ears and my legs suffered =C Not only that, heels also spoiled. Seriously I should born to be a boy and not a girl........zzzz

Wednesday sadness

2010-05-05T23:40:00.006+08:00

Today I went to watch IpMan 2 le!!!

So happy, at first thought i going to travel there alone end up got Naiying accompany me.
Nice show, a lot of great quote regarding wushu. Some of them i had come across before from friends, some I understand long ago...and of course new phrase from the show ^^

It's the third day of school I only sleep in 1 lecture and I swear just semi-asleep, hope i can keep it up. But looking at all the project, I really feel the fear!

Tonight training was a bad bad for me. Warm up was ok, 基本功 was average...but when it come to the "FULL REVISION" I failed in all routine! 五步拳 the most basic routine, i forgot when is 拳 and when is 掌...弹腿十路 i didn't really forget routine but i failed to do my 弓马步 and the 十路 i did a WRONG jump. GLQ...i suppose to give 口令 but i seriously no confidence to do so when i had do all the "funny stunt" for the basic routine. Can see the "not happy face" from ******....the rest of the higher level of routines can 算了!
PT...I know well i never did anything right too. Despite how hard I tried, or how much I encouraged myself...no only that, just for squatting 1minutes my ankle cramp for 10minutes. The pain and the disappointment is beyond words. I guess the time of ******** is drawing nearer...

Anyway, I failed to finish all my tasks for today hence tomorrow I must do 2days work. Jiayou for academic bah!

"it's just the third day...and i cried twice today! First when my ankle cramped like hell...second when i reached home...tears just flow out =C"

Emo again =X

2010-05-02T20:48:00.003+08:00

时过境迁，人士亦非。。。但记忆中的感觉依然清晰！
放下原来没想像中的容易。。。

Alright, count down 12hrs and I'll start my third year in Poly...the final year!
I don't know if this is going to be the final year for my education stage...
Kind of starting to emo...
Anyway, I'll do my best...and hopefully in this very last year I will stop sleeping in class and lecture halls.

Looking forward to next sunday ^^

Ciaos~

Leaving....

2010-04-27T18:55:00.003+08:00

Total of 4....1 by 1 they leave, only 1 remain.....
Years of training and memory, but not forever......
A path which is not realistic for majority........
May them bright future ahead..........

Long Lost Wednesday

2010-04-22T00:53:00.004+08:00

Nice nature reflection?! Yes it is.
Today I went back to school for Club Crawl 2010. I told myself, I must smile for the day be it really happy or not. Surprisingly I don't need to spend much effort doing that, as I really enjoy the day! I guess must thanks to the graduated seniors that came back to play around, especially that crazy weichong, i like that aura he bring around....LOLx
Also thanks Xingen who chatted with me today, answering all my KPO qns. RQ who helped me with the stretching, SUPER shiok!

I was wondering if I should attend tonight training, as I really can't find a reason to miss it so I went. It's fun playing and trying out the orientation games...but the learning of YOG routine was a failure for me as I totally blur + I'm crazy enough to be happy with all my weird and wrong moves. I simply out of mind!!!

Today Eric Coach came, he was in office attire. I was shocked, although I already know that he is taking over his dad business. With that attire, I see a different coach...no more "am i cute?" no more "May Day" song, but more mature look and behavior. I missed 2weeks lesson, total never see him for 3weeks, less than a month...a person can from "childhood" become "adult"! I told mummy, seem like many things we really don't need to think too much -船到桥头自然直.
Anyway, Eric is really a nice coach...Not only for wushu, in term of business I think soon he going to be a profession too le =P Jiayou!!!

Summary 8

2010-04-19T22:39:00.010+08:00

This week, I shall have some pictures to replace words!

Tuesday
I'm feeling well and i officially counting down the no. of hours i leave in the room. Busy clearing leave, when the clock show 3.30pm! I immediately pick up my bag and rush home....FOR MY FAVOURITE SHOW---包青天...hahas

Wednesday
It's a long day, as my day started at 6.10am (time when i trying my best to crawl out my bed) and reaching school by 7.30am for the "Customize Study Path" assessment. Although I felt really tired, but I'm happy to see all the familiar faces from my course. I can't describe that feel, but it's just so much better than being locked inside the EMRS room facing a group of ppl who i failed to communicate to! This event ended at 12.30pm and my life was kind of relax even though i stayed in the room all the way till 5.30pm (never take off as I'll be going for training in the evening). The reason was simple-- 90% of my teammates went off early for their personal matter, facing the empty table is better than facing human beings that I can't talk to =D

Training! Well I remember that I only missed 2wks of training but someone kept saying I skipped 3wks. Evidence shown in my past post, I only missed 2wks of training due to different reasons. Anyway, missing training is never good as my muscle always become SOLID within the 1-2wks. We never did much as we have to prepare for the club crawl 2010 performance. hahas, liping and I were damn slack as we only doing the group performance, and nothing else le ^.~ It always fun with my darling pingping around. Anyway, i felt kind of sad too. It's because i heard from someone Eric Coach will not be coming to NYP anymore...i know that more people going to leave this club...=(( this activity might not be that exciting as the past already =((

Thursday
Nothing special except LEAVING THAT ROOM @ 3pm sharp. All thanks to the personal selling and my remaining leave hours. I collected my products and start contacting my "customer" --Junheng (my sec sch senior), Casmine (Ck bro "friend").
Thanks Junheng for coming down to YioChuKang and collect the honey. After collecting still accompany me back to school and chatted with me @ Koufu. It's really nice chatting with old friend that can understand me. Also, thanks for accompany me to the MRT station. =D
Next, I proceed to Casmine house. Whoo~~ I checked the map online but still the pro me miscount the number of bus stop end up need to walk back 4 stops to her block. First time visit such old design block, made lots of mistakes and finally reaches her house! Nice experience =D
ONCE AGAIN!!! THANKS MY FRIENDS THAT BOUGHT PRODUCTS FROM ME FOR MY PERSONAL SELLING PROJECT....LOVE ALL OF U!!!

Back home, Cat-jie was home too. We did something which we never do before. Picture will speak for me

hahas, I only drank 2sips...and I need to face almost 1hours of music from my mummy. LOLx...I quite like that taste, but can never ever let mummy know if not I sure die. Will find chance to drink up with Cat-Jie again, I guess it will be a rather nice thing to do for us "adult" =P

Friday
The last day in that emo-ing room. Don't have much think to say except GLAD to meet and understand few friends better--- Jen, Pamela, Mak Liyan & Kym. =)
Anyway, when i about to step out that main gate of the A-Block...I also emo again, knowing that can never go into that room again. =( Although memory in there is nothing good, but still I spent 9weeks of 5 days/wk and 7.5hrs/day of my life in that "COLD" room.
All i can say is ----"MUMMY it's OVER!!!"

Weekend
I was addicted the show "1 Litre of Tears" it's really a nice show. I shall share more inspiring quotes from the books. Love it =D
BUT!! I only shed 1ml of tears, after crying at the end of episode 8 and episode 10. sorry for no even reach 10ml of tears =S

Monday
~WHEEE~ when out with a bitch!! hahas....BITCHY CORINNE!!! Lolx, juz kidding.
Shopping, talking about changing of style, business talk, talk about GUYS, saying about stuff that happening....EAT and Fool around...Last but not least, creating a big hole for my pocket =X
Some pictures to show our day!! =D

at ILuma lvl 7 toilet!!!

The sauces....

The peak period on our table....

Almost ending...number of plates!!!

Childish in process...

Too full to go on....=X

Summary 7

2010-04-12T18:04:00.005+08:00

A quote from Fm 95.8 --"有惊无险，又到星期一" since the last update was Monday too.

I really suffered a lot during last week without my own laptop & insufficient money.

All I did is manage to come out with my TEP report on time. Specially thanks to my friend Jen who did the proofreading for me. So sorry towards him as he stated my English is getting from bad to worse. Bless me, how am I going to survive in future?

The most terrible time is stoning in EMRS room. I didn't dare to bring my sis laptop to school as I know how careless I can be, I definitely can't bare the responsible if I spoiled it. Hence what I can only try to find newspaper or books to read. These things really don't attract my attention.

The worst things of all was I'm on budget. I do not have spare money for transport, I can't spend much on meals...Last but not least I have not pay my wushu term fees & I have not get my new belt yet. =CCC

Anyway Wednesday mummy and papa went down to RenCi hospital to see if granny was there. Yeah, she really been transfer over from TTSH. Mummy was telling me that granny had slim down as the food there really killed the appetite. Also, finally granny start to recall the time used to be with us chit chatting and having fun. However, it's all too late now. Things that happened cannot be undone. But whatever happening now do affect what will happen next...

Friday was definitely a long day for me. EMRS i got nothing much to elaborate on. I took 2hours off to go down to Acer Service Centre and collect my laptop which the serviceman assure that it is PERFECTLY alright. Went down to Sim Lim Square next to purchase the charger.
Seriously, after all the stories and suffer I been through the whole week....the true turned out to be I'M AN IDIOT. Yeah, forever doing all the silly stuff and that's Kwek Liyan!
Once again, thanks Jen who is clearing leave went down to these 2 places with me.

My journey for laptop ended around 6.45pm but my entire day journey goes on. I traveled to RenCi Hospital. I got no clear idea of how I'm going to get there after alighting at Novena. The only knowledge about the venue is RenCi is near to TTSH. My direction sense did not fail me, but my impatient almost cause me into trouble. I do not know how to describe the whole situation, all I know is I'm walking towards the correct direction. On the way, I saw a staircase that seem to lead to my destination (something like backdoor and there is not light for the path)..hence I turned into it. After facing a few dead end, I gave up and walked back to my initial main path. Reaching the main road, i notice a Malay man at the opposite side of the road staring at my direction but I didn't bother. As I move on I know that man was walking behind me, still I ignored thinking that it's common to have people walking in the same direction. However, the SOTONG me walked pass the RenCi entrance, realize only after 10 steps away. Immediately I made my U-turn. Guess what?! That man stare at me and U-turn follow me into the hospital. First time in my life, I really run because someone is following me. Thanks goodness he didn't dare to enter the building with me. zzzz

Visited Granny, she was shocked to see me there. Chatted with her for about 10-20minutes as the visiting hours end at 8pm. For the first time since we moved to my current house, she talked so softly and kindly towards me. For the first time since long ago, she kept holding onto my hand throughout the conversation. For the first time since I admit into Primary school, I really chatted with her using a relax and opened-heart. haizzzzzzzzzz.................................

Weekend passed as usual, nothing special. And come today!

Today went to school and had diarrhea...next stared into my laptop and remain in my own world as I really too sick to talk out of sudden. I only start talking during lunch time to Pamela. Well I don't know why people boycotting her, but personally I find her words v. true and I think her words will be the key to unlock me from the darkroom...As for the content, I shall not share and currently I still have not fully digest...hope I can be bright and alive again. =DDD

Alright...I shall end my post with my 2 aims!

1) QUIT FACEBOOK
2) ALIVE SOON!!!

Summary 6

2010-04-01T16:07:00.005+08:00

THIS POST WAS DELAYED 4DAYS.... FROM SHORT POST TO LONG POST LE!!!

Wednesday~ Best Day~ Loving Day

I guess I'm really a weirdo among my group age mates. When everyone is busy trying to hold onto their crush hand, I still find that the best hand to hold is my MUMMY hand. For the past few days include today, my main task in school was to ROLE PLAY as customer for students that's taking PGS (provide GEMS service) assessment. Seriously out of the past 7weeks, this week is the BEST of all.

Wellness day, the first time I really enjoy all because get to play badminton. I missed badminton so much for i do not have anyone to play with at home. I'm not suppose to exercise due to my ankle but i juz can't stop myself to fight for a racket to play.

Night, I had a fun NIGHT OUT with my family. I brought mummy papa to JP shopping. Show mummy the lastest IT technology @ JP Singtel, bring her to FairPrice X'tra to see the new retail format...Introduce Cat-Jie colleague ^.^ Wait for Cat-Jie end work then dinner together, once in a blue moon event! CHEERS ~~~

(Special Msg to CCA mates & CK bro if anyone is reading: i skipped training because of my ankle, and the night out was not planned. Don't come say i go play dun go training, go family ignore friend...)

Thursday~~~~

A day to look forward to the next day, as the next day is GOOD FRIDAY!!!

Friday~~~~

Wheeee....Lunch with darlings, can share secret can disturb can recall all the past wonderful day we used to share.

However! My laptop crashed on the same day. Adaptor spoiled, laptop can't turn on. My weekend plan for report crash with it!

Saturaday~~~

Sleep and sleep, waiting for Cat-Jie to come back with her laptop den can chiong report, but after whole day of waiting, she say she will not be home as she going to stay out at her teammate house to chiong report too.............

Sunday~~~

Mummy papa accompany me to Sim Lim to replace my adaptor. Thanks Juan for doing the research for me, it's helped. I was a noob at the Sim Lim Square, thanks the help of 1 uncle at level 1 shop who refer me to go level 4/5/6 for IT stuff. Managed to find a shop that sell adaptor at a rather cheap and good customer service provider....BUT my laptop failed when that uncle try turn it on with the new adaptor...My hope crashed =X I hate going to jurong service centre....

Monday~~~

The 4th day without my laptop! I feel like dying, lucky my sis got me Samsung Jet which allows me to facebook, and google and youtube abit.

I took leave today for it is the 清明 for the year. And after the praying, I had to to go that acer service centre again. (first visit was last year on my b.day, i took leave for that too)

Mummy papa send me there and leave me there and they went to shop at JP FairPrice X'tra...Waited for 1hr before any counter is available to serve me, kind of lucky again for i'm served by a rather cute "man". Guess what?! my idiotic lappy which simply refuse to turn on, turn on IMMEDIATELY when come in contact with that "cutie" after i explained how hard i struggle to turn it on but always ended with FAILURE! to that fellow... End up with small conversation with him regarding lappy and desktop, and leaving my idiotic lappy for another round of system check. haixxxxx....

NOW! Finally can blog this post credit go to Cat-Jie, Thanks for lending me your laptop. I'll kill my habit of FB and make sure I will do a nice nice report with ur lappy. (unlike my that 好色 lappy)....

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Alright ending post here....need to chiong report...tatas

Quote 2

2010-03-31T02:41:00.002+08:00

道人是非者，便是是非人
不道是非者，却成了怪人

世人真不愧是凡夫俗子。。。。俗!!!

Finally Enjoying again!!!

2010-03-24T14:44:00.005+08:00

Wednesday night was GREAT. Quite so time ago since I posting great wed's night. Finally my "Kaki" Serene and Liping both appear at training again. Mood immediate upgrade. =D
Damn my ankle, I seriously don't know if I should go on with the training with my balloon ankle. I can't practice my worst move "扫腿". What will happen when everyone can do that well and i can't even turn 90 degree.. SADIST!!!

Learning of routine, our so called IC Yeetian wasn't there, so we got back our OLD-EX-IC Guoxiong. Different teaching method, quite confusing...I haven't really used to what I learn last week and I seriously don't know can I remember GuoXiong comment about my each and every steps...Anyway FUN is the main thing ^^

We were told to learn new "flying" movement--飞腿 which I find it scary at first but rather enjoying before ending. Coach GY cheated us making us pushing that heavy mattress in and out...Poor Serene, pulling so hard...lucky at the end someone else helped. 鲤鱼打鼎 aka 咸鱼翻身 was fun too, but I missed Jeremy when I was doing that. And the reason is I had forgot the trick to kick myself up and end with the correct position (not kneeling on the floor)...

I wish every week training can be as fun although no matter how fun it is, can never compared to what I had in year 1............................

为什么如今的社会有越来越多的志愿福利团体？还不是因为做子女的总是抛弃父母，做父母的忽略孩子，身为大人的连自己的健康也不懂的照顾，所谓的有钱人因病就哭穷。。。都要感谢自己的愚昧，不明白为雨愁莫的道理。。。如果每个人管好自己的责任，多长点智慧不就省下这一堆的“可怜兮兮”。

世上最丑的不在于外表，而是那可怕的人心。以上提到的就是其中的例子，但那些并不是最恐怖的。最恐怖的自以为是，蛮横，狡猾，不折手段。。的人！！我讨厌！！！

anyway...kind of get distracted now. shall go on my venting again soon!!

Give UP?! Hope again?!

2010-03-24T14:44:00.003+08:00

梦想太遥远，现实遥不可及。。。

I'm not emo-ing now, but just realized something again. At the same time, I'm preparing myself to let things go. Partially I know I'm incapable, I'm not a smart and diligent person...there's not way for me to compete and beat the rest. On the other hand, I can only say 天时地利人和 all weren't there. Admit and accept, enjoy and SLACK..trying my best to have as much fun as I can within my little boundary. All I wish now is the time can past a little faster for the next 20days.

A little feeling reflection. If I say I got no disappointment at all, that will be a WHITE LIE. I can't believe that I'm suffering in TEP so much when so many friends told me how fun it is. Am i expecting too much due to all the wonderful comment? Or is it my problems cause I know well that I had changed a lot even for the past 1year? Well no matter what it is, quoting again "一个巴掌拍不响"

Fate, I really don't know how horrible people at the other part of the world might be suffering, I only know that I didn't really have much good life ever since I under the world. And thanks, I get to understand the world at a much younger age compare to all the little "princess and prince" of other parents. I'm not going to ask much, all I want is I'll be working hard for a goal, and please stop placing so many obstacles in my life...I had enough...please.......

2010-03-23T11:10:00.001+08:00

Sleepy..No strength...Signal of laying flat on bed and can't move again =C

Summary 5

2010-03-19T11:55:00.001+08:00

3 things!

1. Goodbye to both Magi Mee & Black Sotong ytd
2. Praying Hard that my S8003 battery will be well
3. Back to rotting 9-5.30 life!!!

Summary 4

2010-03-18T00:50:00.005+08:00

Bloody tired now, missed wushu for only 1week and the speed on downgrading is so "AMAZING!"
Split got upgraded in term of the length between the floor and my legs.zz..the no. of yawn i had made increased like nobody business..Brain working system like totally turn off. WTF! Maybe the time to give up is pushing earlier le...LOLx

ANYWAY!! Today my team completed the kite for the Paris Ris beach cleaning...we got 2 kites, and they are MAGI MEE our king + Black Sotong my darling!!

MAGI MEE!!!

BEfore the sotong really born, this is the previous life. My fellow teammates wanna give up on it cause of it shape seem to be so impossible. I got nothing better to do so i go on doing it, thanks my teammates at the end help me finish it up still ^^

BLACK SOTONG!!!

ps: now tt house is empty, both in hospital! how merry x'mas is tt sia?! zzz

Summary 3

2010-03-16T01:32:00.004+08:00

It's kind of happening for the week i just past...

8 March: Realize a funny lump at my left hand little finger. Visited Polyclinic on Thursday and the doctor gave me a referral letter to GH, appointment date - 17 June. Well hopefully by then that funny lump already disappointed by itself.

10 March: Super angry day. All full-shift students will be having an interview clinic and supervisor will give comment and advise how to do better. Out of 150 students, 5students failed to get a slot for that interview and I'm one of the lucky 5. How wonderful was that???

11 March: Papa bang car again. Well Done...another hundredSSSS bucks flew off.

12 March: Had a nice chat with my PEM when submitting the MC, also heard an interesting conversation Thanks to Kym. 12nn got EMRS trip to IT fair to do a "survey". I never go with my teammates cause went to find Cat-Jie. She had got me a new Samsung Jet phone," THANKS GIRL!! " (but i had lost that stylus now, hopefully can find it in school tmr!)

13 & 14 March: Early in the morning come a KNNBCLJ almost tear our door down. Causing my family in unnecessary worries and physically down. Next come a KNNBCJB called us early in the morning causing mummy to be more physically down, cursing us! Fuck her Ass off! She will get her Karma for all the evil lies and thoughts! Papa also emotionally affected, 2 days off to avoid more banging accident = no income! Can't those bloody idiot let us have some peaceful life?

Calmed down, but still have lots of question in my mind!

Quote 1

2010-03-07T23:56:00.003+08:00

“失望是只有努力过的人才有的享受”

A quote from my favorite comics artist.

2010-03-03T23:49:00.002+08:00

Sad..I got to start practicing vegetarian meal from now on, cause I will be damn bloody tired if I consume meat...
Sad..Stamina damn lousy...brain can't work well...IS time to re-consider again...
Sad..I want to eat and sleep every single moment NOW!! =P

Summary 2

2010-03-03T01:15:00.003+08:00

Whee!! Sherlyn is @ Shanghai now! Alright I had slept too much that failed to wish her bon voyage. Missy, hope you see it when u visit my blog k. Counting down 6and 1/2 mth to our next gathering!!!

*Yawn* I had spent my time in school sleeping. What a nice try?! I actually taking Power nap when supervisor came and I didn't realize. WELL Done!! Eat and Sleep, how i wish got more things to do. BUT, not weird thing like the "wellness" we going to have tomorrow. Everyone have to be prepare with a joke. Lame shit. Pray hard I don't need to share any tomorrow.

Getting result tomorrow night. "mental preparation" Last but not least, CONGRATS to Seniors that completed the LAST paper in POLY. Bright future ahead ^^

Summary 1

2010-03-01T00:46:00.003+08:00

The weather is so hot, I guess I going to die 1 night in my messy stuffy room soon.
My body is so weird that can only sweat when I fallen asleep...zzz
I'm so scared thanks to my laptop that kept having problems...
Last but not least, I'm having split personality....which I know but can't be control.

放下

2010-02-27T01:00:00.005+08:00

如果说人生不如意事，十之八九。。。我也认了

只求在那一二的时光能让我体会的久点。。。

好让我在那八九的日子里有回味和坚持的力量。。。。

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EMRS week2 is over...Mini-Road show had completed! Kind of glad and relax cause I'm not any IC for anymore event. I guess it's good to take thing easy, cause I really get to live more happily. Maybe I should Thanks my classmate words, working so hard yet just a B grade for MSC. I don't know how to suck up, I'm not innovative enough...maintaining a B grade should be fine for me now. Now, praying that I can live through the next 7wks smoothly.

Wushu grading! Well done, everybody result is out except for me and naiyu. I roughly can guess the grade, don't have much comment and not going to think much. Just like I mention in the previous paragraph, no more expectation no more stress.

Now hope that the gathering (count down 12hrs) will be a enjoyable 1...no matter what i going to face within this 12hrs now. Bless me for once please!!!

螺旋井

2010-02-23T00:48:00.004+08:00

螺旋圈圈框框。。。

迷途兜兜转转。。。
希望能尽快突破。。。

Lecture about Life

2010-02-20T00:21:00.003+08:00

Life is like an onion: You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep.

2010-02-03T01:34:00.001+08:00

Grading is over...how suck it is dunnid to repeat!
MSC result is out...how bias it is dunnid to say out!
Classical ending soon...how happy i'm cannot define!
CNY is here...how sian i'm only i understand!
EMRS starting...how ??? i'm i also dunno!

Life???! WTH =C

2010-01-21T01:29:00.003+08:00

I hate to take ICA/paper that have the "past" for me to refer
I hate to do thing that I know is wrong yet I still do it
I hate to explain when I know no one going to fully understand
I hate myself being no self-disicipline
I hate it when I can't make decision immediately yet I don't know what's holding me back
I hate myself not being independent enough to feed myself and get things I want
I hate...........I really hate all these............The most ultimate hate will be
I HATE TO EXPOSE ALL THESE BY ADMITTING THEM!!
I HATE TO SHOW HOW USELESS I'M.......

2010-01-11T18:43:00.003+08:00

Dalang~~ Dalang~~ Dalang~Dalang~DalangDalangDalang~~~~~

hahas...Abit crazy about 海派甜心 aka Hi Sweetheart. Quite sad cause the whole concept of the show is Misunderstanding. Hence we shall never make any conclusion unless we had clear all doubts, or else all the parties will be miserable...The hurt will not be Just U or ME...but both =C

Alright a little recap of what had happened....
Lesson had started on last Tuesday, it been so long ago since I seat in class for LESSON. Project Management is a BIG Hell for me thanks to that aus-tutor. So sad that it's my problem for having a low english standard. Shall work hard on self-revision. Customer service is nothing better, it's kind of boring to be a learning module. And guess what?! We had to know about the "meaning" of the color, how to arrange wardrobe, and the weird 7wonders which i haven bother to read up yet. LAST but not least, ICA1 Paper will be 2days later (wednesday). Bless me....

Last friday was my Papa so called 60 years old birthday (in term of lunar). Had dinner at a vegetarian restaurant. Suppose to be a small family event, turn out to be a big HOOHA and around 20people "participated" Well to be honest it's not a happy event to me, all the pre and post problems it's just another hell to me. The only thing I'm happy is to see my little nephew ^^

Love this little cutie...he will be normal soon ^^

2010-01-03T03:22:00.002+08:00

大朋友小动作
这世界好难过
盲目我灵魂被偷走
我不要这麼糗
选择你怎麼够
看小丑当英雄
oh~~
谁规定我该往哪走
我的路我来走
come on
为自己玩个够我想要自由
为自己不罗嗦打死不白活
努力把我的梦
尽力唱到最后
天诛地灭
我就是我
大道理别太多
捂耳朵转身走
说专家只是一条狗
我跟你这麼说
变化就都太多
命运都错过
不怀疑直觉告诉我
一不做二不休
come on
为自己玩个够我想要自由
为自己不罗嗦打死不白活
努力把我的梦
尽力唱到最后
天诛地灭
我就是我
为自己玩个够我想要自由
为自己不罗嗦打死不白活
努力把我的梦
尽力唱到最后
天诛地灭
我就是我

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I love this song, it sing out what I want and who I'm ^^

2010-01-03T02:58:00.002+08:00

It's the third day of Year 2010. Let's move back to few days back!! =D

31 Dec 09
Damn happy day with my besties. Well, there's nothing much to say. I had enjoyed shopping eating GOSSIPING madding and SURPRISING moment with my girls. Thanks Hazel Sherlyn and XiaoJuan, you had end my 2009 with Great Smile and start my 2010 with GREAT HOPE. <3<3<3

However, wanted to add this "幸福的瞬间，有如烟火般的短暂。。。只有一刻的时间去享受，然后一辈子的时间去回味。。。" How I wish my parents get to have the moment too.....我的快乐总在不知不觉中带着一丝感伤，这以成为习惯！

1 Dec 2010
Hahas, spending the first day of the new year playing sleeping and watching drama. Listen to mummy telling me how people conduct wedding in Buddha temple. Weird and Unbelievable. I had a super lax-ing day ^^ (since my ankle don't allow me to walk much too)

2 Dec 2010
Wheee...house cleaning again. There is so many things to do, but seriously besides sitting there and watch how mummy do work I can't do much. =( I really suck at organizing all the drawers! Stuff that I need 4 drawers to keep, mummy nid only 3..zzZZZzz... I really hate my slow brain and that pair of hands which is so 细皮嫩肉, only make mummy "vomit blood" and idiotic pain when never do much at all....Watching mummy doing everything make me feel so guilty and in the same time sleepy too..=X

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Haiz....kinda sad, cause school gonna start soon! It going to be 5weeks of classical...I got no idea how it is going to be and well another round of socializing period with new people I guess.... zzZZzzz...Just wish my ICAs can do well, and praying hard for my MSC result.
All the best to myself.

LASTLY...belate HAPPY 2010 to all my readers ^^

2009-12-31T01:12:00.003+08:00

Counting down last than 23hrs and it will be the end of 2009 and a brand new 2010!
Will my life be having any changes? Will I be able to become better?!
Will I achieve what I want?
All these are unknown...
Looking back at 2009, I think I had made a big mess in my world!
Academic still alright but not the best of what I can...
Wushu is like nothing much better, I can even get myself injured again at the last training of 2009.
I don't dare to tell my parents, but how am I going to hide from mummy if I need to self apply the ailment? Will it affect my night-out with my besties tomorrow? I really suck!
Friends, I didn't manage to spend much time with my old friends. I also didn't use much time to make new friends. I also didn't make any effort to create more BBFs in my world. I just wanna be alone.
Family, this is really something within my life but never within my control. All I can do is to pray and pray for more blessing. May my gods heard my praying.
Health, is really LOUSY! Having running nose at the very last day of 2009.. How wonderful it is! Illness seem to be one of my best friends for 2009. How glad it is?!
Hopefully in 2010, life can be more normal and better. Alright I guess this would mark my last post for 2009.

GOODBYE 2009...Hi WELCOME 2010!!!

2009-12-24T23:15:00.003+08:00

2E3 Gathering...

Super Happy: Coz got many unexpected ppl came...lots of chat and makan ^^

Super Sad: Coz Hazel last min cant make it, Zhiwei missing from the pictures
Super Disappointed: Coz never plan well...kinda bored ppl... =X

ANYWAY!!! REAlly appreciated all the 14 classmates that came...

Singapore is so small...yet fate can make it so BIG!
最远的距离，不是天涯海角。。。而是近在咫尺，却并不知道。。。
I just referring to friends....nth much... ^^

2009-12-21T22:17:00.002+08:00

Today wasn't a good day for me. I didn't get to sleep last night not because of any constructive work or had any fun. All I had was sad, heartache, shock and depression............Everyone get to shout to express their anger, I can't do the same as it will make things worse. Everyone can cry to release their sadness, I can't cause my tears often don't listen to my commands...........

It a draggy day to school since the midnight event. I was wondering and had forced myself to hide all personal emotional, yet early in the morning get scolded from Ms Brenda Lim due to some bloody communication break down between Bazaar and OPS and Ms Lim. Being called up to the office, and get a BIG ROUND of lecture. I had to wait till she finish her lecture on HOW DISAPPOINTED with me especially as I was once her student yet didn't submit something that up to her expectation! Saying that she's going to RE-GRADE the performance result...I really really wanted to CRY but I didnt cause I need to solve that bloody misunderstanding and explain that WE DID DO OUR WORK! The bloody .... like dumb don't bother at all only concern about her so-called 4th anniversary. Lucky Ms Lim take my story and solve the problem. But emo-ing....

Passing over of stocks should have nothing to do with me. But my name kept being called around, it's not that I'm boss or I'm pro or I'm proud but people don't do their job. However will supervisor see it?! Mr Ang say MSC quite difficult to score A. Is Like WTH!! Emo further....

Tomorrow LAST DAY OF MSC!! finally...and REally look forward to 2E3 Gathering...wish it's success ^^

2009-12-19T21:59:00.003+08:00

It is a raining day today..and this 2 cats were sleeping at my block void deck with this position. They simply look so cute and sweet, cuddle together to keep each other warm I guess.
Such a harmless creature when they are asleep!

Had visited Hazel and Juan house to deliver the vouchers they order from me! Thanks a lot for buying from me! I really miss you girls...Sherlyn is still busy with either competition/performance/studies! Really wish to see her soon...
It's really nice chatting with my girls, knowing the latest information! I really wishing them the best...and I look forward to new pair of COUPLE!!

Specially to Hazel dear: Darling Thanks for all the presents and don't think too much of what I had told you, that's all PAST TENSE!! I'm looking forward to the present and FUTURE TENSE!! Dun disappoint me k ^.~

2009-12-18T01:11:00.002+08:00

Happy cause counting down 3days for MSC-days...
Will not miss that slacking but definitely the fun with the new friends...

Looking forward to 2E3 gathering..
Really wonder if it is gg to work not? All I know is I tried before le...

Hoping to meet my darlings soon...
I dun mind just sitting quietly and listen to all their stories...as it is so enjoying too...

Feeling disappointed for someone kept thinking I dun understand her!
I seriously think that all her behaviors are nonsense instead of my words!
She see nth, she let everyone around her kept worrying and remind her to chill & cheer!
I dun see the necessary of it! I feel like telling everyone stop it let her do wad she want!
Maybe I should just care-less since no one is appreciating!
Same as the other event, I HAD TRIED MY BEST!

接下来的命运会如何，就让天来决定。。。。我真的厌倦了！！！

2009-12-17T02:16:00.002+08:00

I'm damn tired...BUT glad that the first TEP stopover is about to be over soon! In another word, 2weeks break is on the way here! I can't wait for it to come immediately!

Forced myself to endure a bit here and a bit there, however I didn't manage to last long as I didn't wanna injured my muscles. Kind of fun today, started off with lots of gossip! Ended with walking out with darling only! <3<3<3

*yawn* how i wish to sleep on bed now but hair still wet! Mummy wun let me go...gonna buy a hair dryer, even if it gg to spoil a bit of my hair quality la!!

~Ciao~

2009-12-09T00:43:00.005+08:00

Photos!!!

SCSM 09

My Favourites Sky photos....

A friends that long-long nvr contacted....

My birthday-Twilight New Moon

My funny Papa...

Knock knock...Kill Kill...JUST FOR FUN!!

Cat-Jie taking over Bella?!

Sista forever!!!<3<3

Millions and Billions of LOVE!!! ^^

2009-12-08T03:16:00.002+08:00

Burning Midnight Oil...
Laptop came home as if it is a NEW one for it is empty now!!!
Side-Headache...
Heart-pouring from parents...
All I can say is 幸福永远只是瞬间的光芒。。。

2009-12-06T03:38:00.000+08:00

不够聪明
你说你
注定失败很彻底
很努力
总是得不到肯定
不够幸运
你说你
注定飞不上天际
就快要
失去继续的力气
亲爱的宝贝
有我陪着你
鼓起勇气
抛开伤心
因为青春
就该好好闯一闯
要飞翔
要寻找真理想
不要害怕失败会受伤
努力啊乘着梦想往前别说累
总有人在你身旁为你加油啊
逆着风也要飞翔
很辛苦也要坚强
带着梦想去飞翔
努力啊乘着梦想往前别怕黑
总有人在你身旁为你祝福啊
逆着风也要盼望
很受伤也要勇敢飞翔
很受伤也要勇敢
也许会失望
也许很受伤
跌跌撞撞失去方向
但是青春
就该勇敢闯一闯
去飞翔
去寻找真理想
亲爱的你
别在意
别管一路风和雨
做自己
星光多麽的美丽
安安静静
我和你
笑看那些不如意
只要你
不怕风雨
你看人生多麽的美丽

2009-12-05T02:35:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!!

hahas...weird to wish myself a belated happy birthday on my blog?! But I really had a nice day with my family. It been so long since we go out together, Cat-jie always missing in action. No quarel just fun and happiness!

Thanks Papa mummy and Cat-Jie accompany me go all the way to Jurong IBP to send my lappy for checkup. It's officially hospitalise now! That service-man say my lappy suffer from some software corruption and that fans need some operation. May my lappy recover fast, will be going back to collect by monday!
(Birthday luck: is raining when reach acer building and the design of the block suck, no shelter to the service centre...only 1 umbrella...manage to ask a stranger uncle to shelter me over...hehe..he super kind and caring to a stranger me la =P)

The Twilight Saga: NEW MOON...Whee went to AMK to watch with papa and Cat-Jie. Yeah, Ck was right, not v. nice! + Cathay cheated us! Say the movie start 5pm when it start @ 4.30pm! + Some bloody people took our seat!
Fun part was the photo taking! Will upload once my lappy back ^^

Dinner @ Marina Country Club-Punggol seafood restaurant! Yummy...long long never ate Crab liao, and today we had Chilli crab and pepper crab! Another Round of photo taking and fun time with Mummy and Hui-Jie around too...

Not a very "full" day! But I had lots of fun...just that spoil mood cause of bloody MSC stuff! People call me when i in cinema and when i enjoying my dinner! I just can't Ta-han them...Pls don't let me in the same classical as them! "Wishing Praying Screaming!"

Lastly..Thanks all the friends that had wishes me via FB and SMS or even call me..
I really had a nice day! Now back to realistic..Project and report time =X

(photos up soon!)

2009-12-01T01:04:00.002+08:00

Haha...2 days of SCMS really have lots and lots of FUN!!!
Blur blur me didn't realise that $20 is per day pay! So we get another $20 again!
Another funny thing is My partner (zhimin) and I don't know what's happening yet, we manage to be the top 3 counter for both saturaday and sunday.
A short reflection, thought this 2days I think I met and serve at least 50 people. It's really help me practice how to SMILE and let others feel the warmth and friendly although there are something in my mind struggling like hell. Speed and Speak and Service! =P

Back home on Sunday, didn't have the mood to rest!
My mind floated with Personal selling stuff!
Thanks Darling Hazel and XiaoJuan for ordering! I know I can trust you 2...love ya so much!
Cat-Jie helped me get $80+ order too...Appreciated!
A new friend aka Junior also order 2 tickets from me!
Target the right person! Senior WC also order 2 tickets!
THANKS THANKS!! you all make my "A" more possible!
Tens+Hundreds+Thousands+Millions+Billions of love!

Report Report Report time! I going to give my wallet a break from the personal selling!
It is time to write GOOD report to secure at least a B for my MSC stopover.
Haix....Still owing $$ for 1 thing...Yeah! Will be paying once my wallet recover...
I think I really need lots of $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
What shld I do leh? Family won't allow me to work permanently...
Only save save save liao lor...
顺便 try to throw away some fats and loss some weight bah....

Alright end here..~Ciaos~

2009-11-28T21:45:00.003+08:00

SCSM 2009 first day for REPEC!
Whee....most happy thing is got that $20 liao...
might seem to be so "little" to all...but it mean a lot to me now..i need $$$
Anyway, have fun serving those runners...have fun crapping with friends...
Surprise to meet my pri-sch bestie...Glad to know new friends...
Now still using Cat-jie lappy...can't upload my "sky" pic!
Hence ending here...Look forward to more fun tmr!!

YIPEE!!!!

2009-11-27T23:37:00.002+08:00

sobsob...using Cat-Jie lappy now!
My lappy is having serious illness i guess...
It can't open IE and Firefox nor Safari datas...
I hope it will be fine tomorrow...I giving it a rest for a week...
If it can't recover then i'll have to send it to hospital...
PrayPray...PRAY!!!

Tomorrow going to Floating Platform to help out SCSM 2009 REPEC!
Siao liao! Got to leave house by 6.25am latest if not will be late!
Yawn...and this gg to last 2days...
All the best for myself! I'll make it through...

Can time slow down abit???
~Ciaos~

2009-11-26T02:23:00.002+08:00

I had quite a bad wednesday early in the morning. But thanks god, the rest of the day are simply so relax and enjoying.

Early in the morning, Product knowledge with Ms Edwina Lim. Bloody hell, my teammate never inform me that she had share tt product after I told her i going to take that for this week. Shit her! Lucky that the rest of the outlet ain't "performing" up to Ms Lim standard too, if not I'll be the dead meat... Now typing this post, worrying tomorrow morning meeting A&P coz it just struck my mind that I had never ask them what shld I say...God Damn ME!! Can i stop being so absent-minded and blur! Bless me...morning meeting cancel again like the week before last!

Went to listen to the University of Stirling and NUS talk regarding their recruit. Missed 1/2 of the Stirling talk as serene and I were late. NUS talk missed 90% as it's so boring that we fallen asleep. =.=" Anyway, still manage to capture the key point such as the requirement they look at! GOSH!! I really think that U is just so far from me looking at my result. Will it end up to be an unfulfil dream by end of the day?! sigh......

Went to sleep outside clubroom after the talk, i guess both serene and I were really tired. We were woke up by another material art club students, as they practice their padding! KNS..i really jump up la! Training was fun, did a lot of funny warm up. I dare to say, I NEVER DO A COMPLETE ONE FOR ANY OF THE FUNNY ACT! i only "try" and laughing at some other seniors. Lousy dumbdumb, can't do the basis well! I'm really getting from bad to worst. Hahas, and surprise enough I still can laugh at it. Practice only Green white routine, guess is time to get ready for that so called "grading" which I already know what I going to score. Anyway, the sweating session is the key that I enjoy in training now. Will hang on till................................

HEY BOYS AND GALS! ANYONE READING! I NEED HELP FOR PERSONAL SELLING PROJECT! I had sent email out to most of the "allowed" readers of my blog. Please I need positive response. Due next monday...treat it as doing a good deed for the day bah!! Do give me a bit of support.! Thanks.

Alright signing off here...tomorrow another long day! After work still need to rush home help out then rush to Tampines and need to back home by 5pm...WTH! Look forward to the long weekend! Is time to start on all the bloody report...zzZZzz...

2009-11-24T19:06:00.005+08:00

Blur like sotong...
Wanna email lecturer end up don't know send to who!?
Wanna call supervisor end up calling OPS!!
Kick here kick there, drop here drop there....
^x^
Dead meat!

2009-11-23T21:40:00.003+08:00

Back to blog something normal, no more change of status such as "blogskin" etc.
This is the 6th week for MSC-project. Learn a lot, and still learning. Now I had learn how to contact suppliers and what to take note. On the other hand, visual merchandising! hmmm...I guess this is really useful not only in career aspect, but also my bedroom if I manage to master the key of it. As for friend wise, I don't wanna and in fact nothing much to comment. I had lost my ability to make friends easily like the past. =P

Had been rather hyper in side event other than MSC. Went to help out the retail seminar because of my past experience as a TMT member. I guess I wouldn't regret being active in SBM club before due to the TMT knowledge i gained. Excused 1day from shop and still had 1 day time off to claim, YIPEEE!!!!

Last week had participated in Junior Achievement ITC workshop and competition. Earning another day off from shop. Well, I think that workshop is great! As they provide us with breakfast, lunch and snack...Yummy,Yummy! Of course, beside eating I had learnt more about enterprise. Such as looking at the market needs, competitors behaviors and applying whatever I had learnt in the past 1& half years. Although my team didn't manage to get into the final round, but we still feel proud of ourselves as we didn't rank last and in fact we really almost hit into the final despite we just playing around with the system. ^^

Wushu was up and down. First a late congrats for the NYP team in IVP getting the most medals and being the first runner-up. Went to support the last 2 events with serene, most impressed by S'pore 集体拳. =P
In school, I still do help out a bit here and there as a member. However, I was quite pissed by few people, just that glad someone was there with me if not I dare to swear I already fight with someone le.
Training! Cool, enjoying especially last week! I don't refer to the Fish net but the rolling and the practice of basis. Ziwei coach had MIA and I know it going to be a permanent one. Shifu had been coming down quite regularly but I guess he will be less frequent in next few weeks. I had finish my LBQ @ Hougang CC. Speaking of Hougang CC, sadly I had stop going there due to a promise. To be honest, I feel abit bad toward Weihan & Xinwei Coach...haiz =X
Anyway, I still sux at all althought finish learning all le...Bless me sia!

Recently really addicted to all FB games! Can't control and don't plan to control yet. Tempted by many dramas which I going to chiong all soon...Crazy me?! Yeah I think so. More and More 宅女, less and less friends? LOLX...

2009-11-22T03:54:00.002+08:00

New skin AGAIN!
Weird me never update yet kept changing skin...
Really hope this really LAST long long better forever...

2009-11-11T01:05:00.004+08:00

有时候，有些事。。。
不知道好过知道。。。
因为无法预料它会带来多大的打击

有时候，有些人。。。
不认识好过认识。。。
因为无法想象他/她会如何影响你的未来

有时候，有些物。。。
不拥有好过拥有。。。
因为你不知道几时将会失去

2009-11-09T23:27:00.003+08:00

Nice blogskin? Well I got no choice but to change as all the image in the previous skin "died".

It's been quite some time since I last blog, don't think much there are anymore follower. However, I think I should officially announce that I'm not going to blog often anymore.

Just wish everyone all the best!!

~~Ciao~~

2009-10-23T16:39:00.003+08:00

What is right and what is wrong?

What is high and what is wrong?

What is happy and what is sad?

Life is nothing but a scale...

2009-10-22T00:10:00.000+08:00

Tired! Pain! Boring! Bruises....
Unlucky...Stress...Go away!!!

2009-10-16T22:43:00.002+08:00

Finally the training is OVER!! 1week of torture chamber at the Bazaar outlet. Nothing to do with the SLACKing old batch student around, see their "face" listen to their idiotic sour tone! Today really so much better without them, first thing to do was house cleaning. Hope the team will maintance this effort. I had start doing cashier-ing, kind of cool and fun + looking forward to go find and contact suppliers. Hope I will do well in this 24 credits.

It's a damn long week! Trainings were so tiring. Wednesday training was coached by Shifu, and GOSH I here wrong, there wrong, everywhere wrong wrong...REach home immediately "cui". Thursday training never failed to be fun, just that can feel some increase in expectation. Actually is due to the slackness in the past that now can't even do the basis well. haix....

Now, rest and play. Have to re-write and revise and summarize and prepare all the report, is better to start early! and the promise............

Really end of my free day, "挑战，现在不是你死就是我亡的时候了！！"

2009-10-14T23:04:00.000+08:00

Tired, Meaningless...I don't know how long can I last again?

2009-10-11T21:14:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow new semester going to start, I'm looking forward also worry at the same time? If I failed to get As for this semester then I can never hit 3.5 GPA, my last and only hope. Last night had my last mahjong session with my family before school start. Nice game although I never win or lose anything, but mummy manage to WIN LOTS from papa and Cat-jie. Going to miss that soon!

Now all I want is to eat the Curry Vegetable mummy cooked, but I know I'm not going to taste the best of it for I'm not feeling well again! I hate it, my body seem to get weaker no matter how I try to take care of it. Not that my heart is burning from time to time, but my physical is burning too. I kept feeling that my body smell like burning charcoal, I really can't stand it! All i can do is pray that it will be over soon...

By the way, I really can't and don't understand why some people love to create SO MANY problem over a simple matter. Willing to spend 2hrs of traveling to and fro to say "2 sentences". How lame people can be? UNBELIEVABLE!

2009-10-10T02:35:00.004+08:00

WHY?! WHY?! WHY?!

I can't take it, but I've to. I thought I already know enough of the past, I thought that's the worst history I need to face and I'm coping with it. However, that's not the case! NEVER!!! How could they?! How could they kept repeating the past over and over again yet fast forward away that portion?! Why no one let me know about it earlier? Why do they allow me to hurt her cause of my ignorance?! Why let me have more guilty and regret in my life and is not because of what I had committed?! Why does the other SHE wanna scold me with the hint of this event? SHE simply don't care about how I going to feel and the curious that grow in me! If she had never hint me that, I will not try to find out and I'll not be typing all these questions that I will never get answer in this bloody blog! REALLY, this is enough! Please, PLEASE stop letting me heard any hint or know anymore fact! Although none can beat the one that I just know!

I'll never repeat her mistake! NEVER IN THIS LIFE! If I'm her, I will not last till now...
I can't do anything to heal the regret, all I can do is to say "sorry"! What a lousy word in this world that only speak out of coward mouth and not knowing how to handle situation! And I had never failed to become that COWARD!!!!!!!

ps: I'm here because of all the mistakes...I've been born to the earth full of MISTAKES!!! Someone else should be here and not me....

2009-10-08T14:56:00.002+08:00

SUCK!!! So SUCK!!!

I never post the second post for wednesday cause I'm not in any mood to it last night. I can't believe i'm so unlucky that injured both legs again (intially thought right leg only, but confirm both legs kanna). That bloody hell driver that never check the road when coming out of the parking lot, HELL YOU GO! Out of so many days no such thing happen, last night so called got "event" and Shifu is here, AND i can't do even my normal lousy standard. FO! and now even my shoulder feeling something.

I don't wish to talk much about training, as I can't go training tonight! I've to be careful and take care of my limbs before I regret it. So ya, last night the "hand-over" thingy. I owe Corinne 1 ice-cream now. Got the post of assistant treasurer. I'm glad at least I'm not the TOP4 position. But sad cause I failed get out of the stupid committee. Anyway, TEP starting soon. Going to be Damn Busy, and I got few EXAMPLES to learn from. I already hinted some "apologies" to my partner, all i can say is "it gg to be a trend of tradition, take it and accept or take it and follow" .

Just checked my TEP allocation, saw a few classmates that I got into the same group with. I exclaimed and kanna lecture by mummy. Alright I shall take her advice and accept everyone like an unknown stranger and start ALL OVER again... I dun like my TEP allocation la! Start off with MSC followed by lesson and lastly the EMRS. Pray hard, I wanna As in this SEM!!!

Alright stopping here, and hope all my bad luck stop here too. Bye!

2009-10-02T22:27:00.002+08:00

Weather is really hot, how I wish I'm at somewhere that can see snow and not just SUN everyday. Kind of happy for finally finish the book "Esclipse" and moving on to the last book of Twilight Saga. Training at Hougang is getting better! Really like the coaches there, and now also those little cutie there. Nowadays kids are incredible! I got a feeling of being more comfortable there than in NYP now...=X

Just to share this "knowledge":

Qns: WHAT's "ABCDEFG" stand for?
Ans: America Breast Cancer Disease Especially For Girls.

Qns: Where the "F" word come from?
Ans: 1day someone asked F " Hey F, you (U) see (C) K?"

Kinda lame 2 Qns, but it's from a little boy name "zi sen"...he really remind me of another person of the same name...=X
Alright ending this random post here..bye!

2009-09-30T23:15:00.002+08:00

Back from NYP, mummy tell me 6pm+ many place in Singapore was affected by the Earthquake from Indonesia. I asked her did she put a curse on me such that everytime she not feeling well, no matter where I'm, i'll be feeling sick too. In return, I got a scolding =x

Training was as usual, just that the attendance 'no comment'. My brain ain't working well, I don't understand what Ziwei coach trying to say, I can't remember the main point to take note. Just hope that tomorrow at Hougang will be better since Weihan coach is more fierce and "we" don't want to embarrass ourselves in front of the kids + we already know learn lots theory from Ziwei Coach. Anyway, I want to thanks the Weapon IC -weichong for fixing the broadsword I'm using. It seem to be simple and is his job, but still thanks cause I can't do it myself. GY coach mention about "important" event for next week and hope to see "full" attendance. Different guesses are going around us almost immediately after dismiss. All I can confirm is it definitely got nothing to do with the "HALLOWEEN" party. How i wish Corinne is around, if she is around we must have start to gossip everything LONG LONG AGO with all the details.

I'm currently reading a blog, and I feel sad when I saw the content. There's nothing much I can say, for I've no rights to do so. I just don't understand, what so good about him? How can one person still want to create a family with a person who you damn sure in heart that you are not his Number 1. Is there anything that is even more silly than this? Also, I feel like telling her something wrong with her sentence "wan to stay out of my home", for she is already ALWAYS stay out from this home. There are many thing going on, she didn't know or maybe she don't think there's a need to do so. I feel like shouting out loud and tell her everything, but i can't for many reasons! When will she start to see all these fact and wake up from her silly DREAM!
Love is really blind, and idiot! It not only blinded people also damage people future! What's love? I don't know, but I know I hate it!

2009-09-29T22:35:00.007+08:00

I finally did something I wished to do...I feel so light and comfortable now! I shall not write much, let's photos speak for me. Yipee!
VS
Waiting for auntie.....................................After haircut! ^^

2009-09-28T22:33:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST MUMMY!!!

It's had been so long ago since i bold words in my entries. Since the negative posts I wrote, so many things running in my mind. As usual want to write and express lots of stuff, but I didn't. Yesterday was a happy day! Went to a Teochew restaurant to have dinner, it's a nice gathering with HIM around. Well, I guess my parents and I had did a good job in being friendly. Dishes there are yummy, most likely due to the name of "TEOCHEW". I guess it is the first time since 1 to 2years ago, that Cat-jie followed us home immediately after dinner. Missed our 四角麻将 and finally get to play it again last night. Lousy me, didn't do well for academic, mahjong also loss the most...but I'm still happy.

Today was the day, I never buy any present for mummy but hope I had gave her enough laughter to forget other stuff. We met a guy when we go out shopping. Quite a nice guy aged 27, but sadly he already married. I'm wondering why Cat-Jie wouldn't met or interested with such guy. Discussed with mummy, and I finally know why my Sec 3-4 form teacher advice me to start 'finding" while studying before regret. Hope Cat-jie will find a good one like the one we met, hope miracle will happen that a 'jade' still remain unfound among the stone.

End for today, Goodbye!

2009-09-24T02:30:00.002+08:00

Last night was quite a shocking night, someone came to me on MSN and chat with me. Well, I didn't expect him to share so much, but it's really nice. Just hope that he really recovering from his "madness" while I can manage through my "changing process". Wonder it is really a must to give up something like he say, but if really do I know what it will be. Hate to think about it...

Mummy don't allow to sleep as I told her result will be out. She accused me for causing her to be impatient. Anyway, I had a nice sleep till 1pm and saw Serene message (8am+ send de) telling me result really available. Switch on lappy without washing up, saw the result! Alright not exactly surprise when I saw 1 C+, it's expected-Retail Studies.. the only module I failed to revise before paper. Didn't score as flying color as last semester, but still manage to pull up GPA by few more decimal value. Shall work hard for next semester TEP in order to hit GPA 3.5! haix...

Training for today is so-so. Not much excitment, just that getting bruises which I very long never see on my knee-cap. Body seem to be in no mood for training, simply no strength just draw out the routine. 棍 is even worst, I kept forgetting the steps and 虚步! Serene had a good laugh while resting at the side. Started on 练步拳, it seem to be quite easy and fun. Hopefully I can do well for this, since my weapons really cannot make it.

July+August+September babies birthday celebration. Lots of guys never come out but I lazy to force people la. Money collection is still bad. Maybe is due to the long break since I bought cake and let's everyone had the event. Jeremy shared something with me, he really not that "evil" like he always describe himself. Thanks for those advice, but I seriously hope everything will be over soon. And Naiyu don't think too much about SHS club and don't be angry over someone getting free CCA points (like i say, if angry also I should be the one not u!), it's not worthy. Think happy stuff k =)

Long post again, tomorrow another long day I suppose. Training with empty soul, how tough it's going to be? Back to baby time can?!

2009-09-22T20:36:00.002+08:00

Emotion is going up and DOWN, high and LOW! It's very obvious that one activity doesn't suite me and it will be ROLLER COASTER! I hate the unknown everywhere, yet can't avoid it.

Working at Mediacorp Travel Fiesta was kind of weird for me. Initially Aunty Nancy told me I'll be there to distribute flyers but it turn out to be "no much flyers" to distribute! Well so the first day I tried my best to recap all the knowledge that I lost touch for one and half year. It's really tougher to recap than learn new. Second day was slightly better as I'm more into the situation. Seeing the other companies employees way "snatch" customers I really can't take it, hence I start to grab anyone near our booth. Fun afterall as I'm being taken care like expected, and create quick bond with the new staff too. Just that from this event I really understand what it mean by "attitude determine altitude".

Monday is a resting day. Also is a crying day. Hate to admit that I cried, but I really see the need to express out somewhere. I see the biasness, I'm not being sensitive and I've no rights to say anything. Went to the watch-shop to ask the price to repair my dearest watch. Uncle immediate respond was not worthy, it cost $80+, must as well get a new piece. I was alone and they were somewhere nearby purchasing stuff. My heart ache like hell, it's been so long since I had such a feel. Walking back to meet them, my mind kept repeating "别来惹我！" I really don't wish to talk, I know I will appear to be rude and fierce when I don't smile. However I really can't force a smile like I always do. Why must he think in his weird way and accuse me for nothing?! I just feeling sad and aching in heart, I don't even have the rights to be sad?! I'm trying my best to hold back my tears, I rather cried along the busy TPY central pathway than in front of them! YET, they can't give me a break...and my aggressive tears just refuse to listen to my command!
I HATE IT!

Tueday was fine, at least fine till now. A bit crazy over Yo-yo, it helps to distract me here and there. Lots of different Lobang this holiday, surprise that my classmate call to introduce job. Well, same job appear 3times within 2years is really rare. I guess I'll be going down and take a look this time round. Now wondering what Hazel doing at Cambodia, "DEAR hope u having fun and enjoy ur grasshoppers meal!" Had discuss about our next gathering last friday, and now this statement to Sherlyn "Sry dun think I can make it this time round to overnight at NP!" as there will be an important wedding to attend.

Up and down, finished reading the book "All marketers are liars". All I can say is, I already don't know who to trust and share bottom heart stuff. After reading the book, I just feel that this world is really hopeless. Everyone living in lies, lies created by themselves, accept lies created by others and telling lies that aim to let everybody to believes. Maybe I'm just being too passive, but that's my only reflection for the book. Anyway knowledge in it I'll still absorb, cause that's life!

“好累好累。。。太多的事我仍然不明白。。。而如今也不想去明白了。。。。只想告诉朋友们，《善有善报，恶有恶报，不是不报，时机未到》在21世纪就如同童话故事，纯粹用来骗小孩。。。千万别相信！”

2009-09-19T02:51:00.002+08:00

Kwek Liyan to Kim HyunJoong Crazy Period is OVER!!!

What a lame declaration! Anyway really over for now and I seriously don't know when is the next round of crazyness. Hope it will not be so soon, cause I not sure if I can calm down again so fast!

Wednesday and Thursday simply had fun with wushu. I had changed my mindset and now I get to enjoy more or at least like the past again. Well, I not sure why is this happening but seem like I got to keep this cycle on to maintain the level of determination. Just to side track a little, Wednesday I spent 40min in the restroom just because I feel odd in the hall...I guess from long ago I had cultivate this behavior without knowing. On the other hand, I think Xinwei Coach is really good...^^

Friday a nice day! Finally met up with my darlings after dozen of apologize. It's a short evening but really enjoy. The enjoyment is never failed whenever i spent my hours with them. Chit Chat Crap Suaning Wishing Predicting Understanding! Thanks lots for still willing to ask me out after my constant apologizes...LOVE U GALS!

Saturaday and Sunday going to be out WHOLE DAY! Weirdo me! Everyone is working for LOTS of $$ but I'm like doing for voluntary work...Hope myself going to enjoy the 2days and monday SOON to back to my Pig-mood!

That's all for now...Tata!

ps: DArling take care k...hopefully can see ya 2wks+4days after this tuesday...<3

2009-09-15T01:22:00.003+08:00

Another Post!
Xiaojuan 老婆 go Offline le...no one to help me from gg on watching the video.
AWWWWW!!!!
XJ say i'm seriously poison and i simply cant stop the poison from spreading!
A bit crazy now...shall end this post with my crazyness!

KIM HYUN JOONG - poison by his charming smile, his eyes and his songs (for the time being)

honestly,seriously...HE keep me away from some other thoughts but I know that it isn't the best solution...hahas

2009-09-14T21:01:00.001+08:00

Really "busy" since the last post, Friday was a nice day for me. Had go down to Vivocity to collect the "wages" which is $80 only. Anyway still glad that i worked there as the experience is MORE than the money. Visit my first workplace at Chinatown-Ikchin travel agency. Gotten the "uniform" and will be helping out at Suntec this coming weekend. Really look forward although my job is to distribute flyers only. I'm so happy that colleagues there still damn FUN to mix and mess with. Initially thought to go down say hi and go shopping, but ended up stay till 7pm to do "work" without being paid. However, the laughter relax and the feel I had during the 3hrs there is just exactly what I wish to find back. Really wonderful, although it is just a short moment and I know after that day I will never find it there again…

Reading books and watching youtube is my main activities. Manage to finish the whole 流星花园之花样男子, but i'm DAMN disappointed that Geum Jan Di (金丝草) never choose Yoon Ji Hoo (尹智厚）. That's so stupid or that's what people alway say "Love is BLIND". Ji Hoo is so SWEET understanding always available to protect and love her ++ the grandpa dote her so MUCH, when that idiot Gu Jun Pyo （具俊表） always cause her heartbroke and that FREAK Witch mother did so many things to hurt her. Happy ENDING as usual, but i just feel that Jan Di was stupid to listen to those UNFAIR encouragement, asking her to endure because she is the only one that can CHANGE Jun Pyo. Pity Ji Hoo for being stupid too to give up at first. Anyway glad that So Yi Jeong (宋易正) and Chu Ga Eul (邱佳乙）get together... but sad that Song Woo Bin (苏宇彬） like loner... Anyway really nice watching it! To kill time...as it is really UNREALISTIC and LAME for guys like F4 does not exist in this world at all so bored people will find it interesting to watch!

Anyway I will like to write this paragraph for my darlings. Sorry darlings for my constant ABSENT for outing, I promise I will try to make it 1day before 22Sept, trouble you gals again to make arrangement. IF i failed to make it again, I die also will send u at airport on 22Sept. Really SORRY! =X

Unable to do any practice at home for some stupid injuries at shoulder I caused during the training. I no longer able to persevere like the past. Just hope that I'm not the worse, this isn't asking too much right? Recently there is something I really need and want to do badly, but I can't do it now. Don't know what will come to the end and how will I feel just wish I can do it soon!

2009-09-11T00:21:00.003+08:00

太多的东西想写，可是写了后又全部删除掉。因为我实在无法形容一切和我内心有一把声音告诉我不能让他人知道自己太多。。。我想是我变了，对好朋友们我都失去了吐露心事的能力。。。可能是我太清楚大家听了后会给予的反应，可能是我以不会正常的像往日般于人沟通。。。无论如何我希望有朝一日我能恢复成想说就说，想骂就骂，想打就打，想哭就哭的我。。。

回到武术的话题，终于学完棍法了。。。我想我可以不要去梦想枪了，因为我现在连棍都握不好。今天下后港又学到了不少，主要是知道自己更多的错误在那里！ｓｅｒｅｎｅ　和　ｅｄｗａｒｄ　个有所长，唯独我不堪入目。教练的要提点些什么我早就有所准备，但失望的是教练竟然担心我无法接受负面的评语。我的脸写着“不堪一击”这四个字吗？　 serene 和 edward 也很好的一直提醒我犯的错误！其实，我想专心的练，但我脑子里就是一片空白。或许是心的问题吧，如今每个拜三和四成为我“解脱” 的日子。思绪真的太混乱了，可这又不能是我的借口。。。下星期会再努力，希望会有进步！

好了。。。我想今天要写得，能写得都写完了。。。再见！

2009-09-05T01:14:00.002+08:00

It's blogging time again. I think it had been aged ago since i last blogged in paragraph. Short sentences are easier for me as I often jump from window to window and never concentrate to complete a post without moving around. However today I feel like giving it a change, and back to my orginal purpose of blogging. It's none other than hoping to improve my languages.

Recently Mummy seems to be so SWEET to me. Maybe she really think through or really too sick and tired to control us anymore. I really felt so grateful that she is giving me permission to go out for more training. Deep in our heart we know that Mummy is still not quite happy with it as she see no need to spend the extra money and time out there when Wushu is not going to be my future career. But on the other hand, she is aware that I'm having a big regret for not being able to learn from young...Thanks Mummy, how i wish we could just maintain such understanding relationship for all circumstances...

Anyway Thursday training at Hougang CC is really helpful for me. I'm really suck with 棍, besides that I get to see all my mistakes clearer. I really don't understand how I manage a Gold for the first grading when I can't even get all the basic RIGHT...I have to change all my wrong habits and increase my perservarance to at least get all the basic correctly. Without achieveing these, I don't see myself having any needs to go for grading and embarrass myself... Got to congrats Serene, "Gal you r NOT allow to say that I'm better anymore coz the TRUE is u r must more IMPRESSIVE than me ^.~"

Friday was good as I get to sleep till 2pm AGAIN! Lunch and went to meet Liping at TPY library. Our sweetest wushu 宅女 actually asked me out. Have a good time in the library with her, and Thanks to her I got 2 more books to complete in this holiday. Oman! A total of 4more English books and 2 Chinese books are waiting for me!!! Next visited Popular to find 弟子规, and get to understand her theory of "chemistry" with books and people. Last but not least Gossip time at a special venue-- TPY bus interchange. It's nice to share with her about the experience of training outside as I hope she will join us too, but she stated that she will only commit when she know she will be doing it for LONG TERM! Everything is nice except an old uncle sitting behind her kept looking at my direction and is so damn obvious he was staring at either my SUSHI or my legs. Damn eerie that i turn the other direction and he turn also, lucky Liping FINALLY realise and that's when we end the gossip... Look forward for more such opportunities!!

Alright I wish I can chiong my RC all the way to the top and stop the "race" with Captain CW and Cihui-Dajie...each time turn on will see our 3 names move up and down each other names...so LAME la! Anyway I don't think I'm going to spend too much time online le for I'm gg to finish off all the books ASAP and hopefully get some more time for self-training bah...

Tatas~

2009-09-03T02:54:00.002+08:00

Second Posting...
Blogskin CHANGED again...
The purple skin is SIMPLE but hmm abit too die le
This is another simple but more LIVELY skin
Hope it will last longer...hahas..
And Serene will be gg to HGCC tmr too...
Cheers =D

2009-09-03T00:25:00.002+08:00

Wheeeeeee...
Today my lappy or network or webpage..
Maybe ALL...finally back to normal...
Happy Happy Happy...

Let's talk about today training...
It's nice as I can rmb the routine...
But my left leg giving me problems again...
And Ziwei Coach comment my 棍 as
"Something is wrong and weird, but dun understand how i still got it right?"
Wad a nice comment that confuse me so much la!
Anyway Borrow 棍 and 刀...wonder y but kanna suan like hell thru out the process...
Tomorrow gg to b another nice day and hope i will not delay those kids the learning
Serene and Edward not sure gg not? sobsob la =(

Anyway juz finish fb notes stuff...
Sherlyn hope my blog to be SHORTER and Sweeter if nt wrong
While Juan will like me to blog out my dream with "Edward CULLEN"
Only sorry Juan me too shy to share every detail la..
+ i nid to put a BRAKE (break) to it..before i kept myself slp without waking up...
HAHAS...

Alright to be nice to Sherlyn i'm ending my blog here..
ps: GAL I kept very short le hor =D

2009-09-02T02:39:00.000+08:00

Yawnz...
Another day past...Counting down for school start?!
NO!! hahas...
Short day today main thing is go 拜公公，祖父，祖母 for seventh mth le...
Got DAMN pissed by a "YayaPaPAya" old lady..
She tot she gt educated know english BIG DEAL la...
So F**King selfish...Brainless ah soh!
Anyway...Today is a fruitless day...
Nvr touch on my eclipse at all =(
Read Cat-Jie Project Scope till fallen asleep...
Ethnic and Government..OMG i totally ???

Now I gg to zzZZzz MORE..Pigging again =P
Tmr or i shld say ltr gg to be a nice day for me...
At least i do hope so...
Training help me sweat but i wish i can do btr den juz sweating...
Pray pray =P

+ saw smth at somewhere...diff stories but same logic from my opinion...
Mummy say dun too kpo, but i tot kpo is okay just dun comment too much la...
I'm seeing things clearer and further den ppl, but all the true is always cruel...
No way i can say it out, and no one gonna be grateful for tt too...
Keep my mouth shut and wishes all the best bah...God Bless Everyone =D

ps:1mth++, i didnt miss him as i tot i will...wad it mean? it mean nth had happened ^.^ Cheers for tt ^.^

2009-09-01T03:41:00.000+08:00

Yo...blogging at this timing coz hair still wet wet cant slp yet =P
TOnight i dig and force out another secret..
actually is getting a "confirm stamp" for my guessing la...
(tt person might be reading den scolding me..hahas =P)
Although kanna suan and fool but still happy i guessed correctly again ^^
I see the potential in me being a PI in future..
If i dun wish to be business woman, or give up being an Officer la..hahas...

Anyway I leading a SUPER good life now...
Mummy is cooking again frequently every night
Means i dunnid go buy take away liao.. ^^
REading my favourite series in a damn fast speed..reach book3 -Eclipse now!
Got more time to think of stuff i like such as WUSHU..
Can go gossip and rumors and maybe help matchmake ppl again...
WOW! can u imagine all my favourite activities i can do NOW!
I'm simply so GAY now...
Just that gotta help CAt-Jie with her 2000words essay, hope i dun screw her up..
And failed to go exercise in the morning due to the weather and my "owl" style
Well, i think is fair that i dun get ALL i want if not i will b damn emo once sch start la!
I really into the life of feeling and getting everything i like..

Hahas..just a short reflection for this past few days...
I get to gossip but my gossip sometimes can help me reflect abit...
Last time i used to be a person who alway wish to b the BEST of all...
I cant afford or stand to be even a number 2..
I simply stressed myself out and mummy kept asking why...
Now, i realise how stupid i'm wanting to be the first..
Thanks to the carefree and ideal life i leading now..
I did get to do wad i love,and i'm enjoying it..
There's not need for me to be the first and coz my happy to be sad =P
That doesn't mean i'm nt gg to put in my best effort..
Just that changing a perpective... dun be the last jiu hao..hahas
I cant stop myself from the mindset of WINNING yet
But i definitely know what i wanted BETTER...
Just a Quote from lyric
"我从来就不在乎自己是个小人物，因为平凡也是一种幸福。。。看到名人总是忙忙碌碌，我的时间由我控制，平凡日子一样会充实。。。"

Alright...a song from wu ke qun...for friends that just gt in r/s, wanting to woo ppl, a bit emo with life...EVERYONE LA! hahas...i think it is kinda nice in some way ^.~ enjoy

2009-08-29T15:57:00.000+08:00

Yoyo...BACK ONLINE NOW!
Alright I just wanna say i nvr appear offline
As i simply nvr touch my lappy at all for the past 2days
I'm really busy with Edward Cullen and Bella Swan
Finished Twilight now @ the beginning of New moon..
I gg to cry soon i know so i decide to BRAKE(break) before I go crazy...

Just to update abit about my life...
Thursaday simply ROX! Went down to Hougang CC for training...
Thanks FW leading me Serene and Edward there..
REally a Long distance walk from Kovan MRT la...
Nice chatting with Serene on the way there, help me distress bits...
Training at Hougang remind me of last yr when we first join NYP wushu..
The warm-up haven finish i already sweated like hell..BUT SHIOK!
But 1 things bothering us is all the xiao-didi, xiao-meimei there...
ONly 3 of us so GIANT lar! And their skill..haix i feel so =X
Weihan Coach happen to be teaching the green-white students 棍
But we nvr bring so gt to borrow...
Anyway Edward is doing well with those kids..but ME and serene..
I think i simply SUCK coz i got problem with direction, left right..
Haix, but i do think i had learnt something there..i enjoy it...
HAHAS...Another nice time travelling back with SErene
And Thanks Dear Serene for the Lappy-bag...<3

Friday is finally a day for me to rest at home...back to my ideal life..
Nothing much to share..or i shld say i'm nt in the mood to type liao..
Going to watch tv and read my favourite book...
How i wish holiday is nvr ending!!
Ciaos~

2009-08-26T22:47:00.000+08:00

Ytd intend to blog de but i'm really too tired le...
Very sad early in the morning, or to be correct i'm sad since monday noon...
There is something in my heart stirring my emotion that make me want to cry..
I didnt notice what had happened until ytd morning i saw my watch glass had crack..
Should be due to my carelessness at work that cause that damage..haix..
My heart had crack abit like my watch =(

Today is the last day of my third job..hahas..
Is a long day for me today and i expect myself my be in pig-mood...
BUT it turn out to be more ENJOYING than what i expect...
Working is like as usual..just that climb up and down a bit more than usual..
To clean all the dust and help arrange the display..
Aunty Pearline ask me why i cant work for her AGAIN...
And she stated that she wish me to help maybe at the end year festival period..
Well, i really wonder am i that good or am i just a cheap labour..
I shall leave this qns for TEP result to answer bah... =)

WUSHU ROX!!
After work went to school and report to clubroom...
1 of the rare time that i feel so comfortable inside the room...
Although all are guys till Naiyu came..But ppl tt i dun like nt there mah...hahas...
No common topic with those guys too tired to be suan by them so went to slp..
Naiyu came and my FUN began...hahas...REally enjoy crapping with her...
Training for today is so funny...
Due to exams we ended up move to the corridor for training again..
As the area is small so cant practice routine, hence we go back to padding..
Ziwei Coach took charge of green white belt girls and white belt boys..
I feel so paiseh that my first kick didnt hit the padding but hit coach..=P
Serene, liping, Xinxin, Naiyu, Shuting and Sarah(yr1)..we all gt different kind of STUNT
Fun..Fun...FUN!! See Ziwei Coach the "cui" expression make us laugh MORE..
Eric Coach today nvr talk much but he got come give us pointers and talk about 五月天..
The whole night de cool and happy is beyond words can describe for me...................

However now I'm angry and feel like crying again...
NOt having depression or mood swing...but
THANKS to CAT-jie go ask fortunate-teller to look at her fate..
Then that FUCKING fortunate-teller told her might be having funeral at end of this yr..
PLUS my stupid papa mention some stupid idea and stuff...
All and all my mummy think she will be the ONE....
Come on I know all these are BULLSHIT, but my heart just feel so negative..
SOMEONE PLEASE! Give me a slap or a scolding stop me from thinking too much...

I'm going crazy NOW!!
There are things for me to be Happy (nypwushu)..Things to be sad (myself)..Things to be worry (family) and excited (Hougang training tmr)...
Can i have less emotion? It's like tearing me into pieces now....

2009-08-25T00:52:00.002+08:00

haix...initally plan to write a short and random post today
but i think it gonna be another long one again...

STart with my initial topic..
MAhjong again last night.. I WON!!
but must thanks Cat-jie aka super 花姑
She 花姑 till papa mummy cant win even full tiles la!
气死 papa...笑死 me...blur blur mummy...
Happy Happy...

Alright now is the unexpected stuff...
Early in the NOON 1pm+ received a call den rush down to work le
The third job in my life..Sales-girl at BATA shop
The third job in my life...Still working with people I noe (a neighborhood aunt)
The third job in my life...although just 7hrs but i think i noe wad suite me most le..
Anyway i had managed to overcome my height fear of using ladderstairs..
Realise that everywhere sure will find and nid 1 thing and that's NUMBER
Today experience is like hmmm kinda driving me crazy with all the box and code...
But I think i still coping well..or at least Ladyboss aka aunt say she like my attitude and hope i'll go on work for her...
Think and consider..I decided to tell her sorry i gg to help her as i promised in the noon..which is today till wednesday...
No choice, as i had planned my holiday...+ well promised aunt Nancy long ago but kept failing to kept my promise...

haix....
My life is weird...
When i want thing, it just don't appear...
When i don't need thing, all flow in together...
There is too many thing i want, and there is too many choices in front of me...
And this is when i realise 拥有也可能是一种痛苦...
When there is too many too many...and decision is needed to make...
Many thing have to consider...pressure is so much that no one can describe...
Every decision made = dozen of opportunities cost u paid...
WELL, glad that i see things faster and clearer now..
I'm ready for any opportunities cost..
(at least tt's wad i think now....)

2009-08-23T19:19:00.000+08:00

I think it's really great to have holiday.
Ytd was a fun day that attached with some bored moment as usual.
Early in the morning aunt Nancy called and invite us over to their house for dinner...
Well exam is over, in holiday liao..no way for me to say no and stop mummy papa...
Smart enough for me to bring along my favourite book "TWILIGHT" with me..
Reading it while adults had their own conversation and a grp of JC-grad students playing mahjong at the other side...
It's seem to be so nature and fine to be alone now, no longer wish to be the center of attraction!
However Uncle Kok came and chat with me..well i'm glad that i can handle him fair enough le...
No more tearing so easily in front of him liao... =X
He started off questiioning wad am i reading...hence i told him "novel"
He went on asking wad kind of novel...it so IMPOSSIBLE to tell him it abt romance and stuff..
So i told him.."Vampire and stuff"...
Without fail he move on with all the 大道理...used to it le..
Everything happened just like a routine whenever we visit..
Just that Aunt Nancy mention about NATAS fair and saying how 没良心 for me nvr visit the company since the day i quit...
She hinting hoping me to go and help out..i kinda feel weird maybe i dun really like 连带关系
But mummy assure me that Aunt Nancy want me is because i'm diligent and willing to learn..
I really wonder!??!

Return home and had my another favourite activities!
MAHJONG SESSION!
Oman can anyone imagine i been controlling my itchy hand throughout the sem?!
Anyway i think my skill is bad now...as i loss $14.60 to mummy..haix =(
While playing we also watched the channel 8 movie "七剑"
Heard a song which is so nice and familiar...
Out of sudden den i realise.."HEY it the song seniors play during our lunchtime performance!"
Got an urge to 练套路 but cant...
I think i finally manage to convince myself that something in my blood is 武术...
Just that i also wondering........................

End my personal stuff here...Gonna continue with bipolar disorder...

BIPOLAR DISORDER II

Had mentioned about avoid arguments in the previous post. The key to it is
~ANGER MANAGEMENT~

1. Recognise anger: feeling angry, having bodily sensations (flushing, muscle tensing)
2. Accept this feeling. It can moveyou to resolve conflicts. However, feeling anger and acting out anger are not the same thing. Acting out anger may result in consequences that you regret later.
3. De-escalate anger by distraction and cooling-off methods such as
*Walking away, taking "time-outs"
*Deep breathing
*Count to ten
*Listen to music
*Watching TV
*Muscle relaxation
*Exercising
*Reading affirmations e.g.,"I can choose not to be angry. I'm in control."
4. Know what triggers you to be angry e.g. when there is a disagreement
5. Talk about your feelings when calm
6. Learn to forgive and recieve forgiveness
7. If you have a religion, pray and be at peace with yourself and others

Next is the ~STRESS MANAGEMENT~
1. Physical
* Healthy lifestyle including balanced diet
* Exercise
*Enough rest and sleep
* Relaxation exercises e.g. deep breathing, progressive muscle relaxation, guided imagery
2. Psychological
* Identify negative thoughts and change to positive ones
* Be realistic and learn to accept what you cannot change.
Ask yourself: Is what I'm thnking really true? Where is the evidence? What are my options?
3. Social
* Share your feelings and problems
* Take part in recreational activities with family and friends
4. Time Management
* List all the things you need to do, prioritise, get someone else to help if possible, do not procrastine. Space out changes in your life.
5. Spiritual
* Faith provides support, a sense of life's meaning and feeling of acceptance

END!!! <3

Whoo-lala...Information wanted to share is done!
Anyone reading? hahas...
Wanted to share cause I know fro time to time i'll be understand such circumstances...
Friends take note and take care k...^.^
CHEERS!!!

2009-08-21T15:42:00.000+08:00

YEAR 2 SEM 2 is OVER!!!
Last paper ended @ 10.30am..
The paper is OKAY! BUT i suck... =(
Never study well...as i had used up all my energy for the first 4 paper..
Failed to recover in time..
I was emotionally affected too..
1 of it is stupid the other people will think i'm stupid...
Juan shld noe i'm still crazy over Young Yang Warriors..
As usual crying like mad again =X
Next Cat-jie, u think i'm kidding with u that u r affecting me?
Tellin u now i'm serious!
I wish u could fill me with details...if nt i'll strongly feel he nt worth ur love...
男人不该让女人流泪，让女人流泪的男人不算是男人！
长痛不如短痛，希望你能记得 “被爱永远比爱人幸福”
我目前看到的是你爱得比他多。。可能很多人都认为爱不是这样衡量的。。
但请看清这世界的现实，它有个译名叫做 “残酷”

Anyway is over...Just hope that i can achieve the target GPA..
Director list i think hopeless le..haix =(
Alright stop all the emo stuff...share some knowledge with my reader...

Bipolar Disorder

It is a medical condition that affects the minds, also know as Mania or Manic Depressive Psychosis. It affects the mood where the person experiences extreme mood swings (high and low), with periods of feeling normal in between.

It affect men and women equally. About 1 person in 200 will develop a bipolar disorder. Occurs most likely before middle age but can occur at any time from adolescence to old age.
(we belong to before middle age wor...)

Symptoms:
(Manic Episode-high mood)
* Elated mood
* Irritable feelings
* Increased activity
* Decreased need for sleep
* Talkativeness
* Overactuve thoughts
* Inflated self-esteem with grand, exciting ideas
* Impulsive, uninhibited, reckless behaviour
* Psychotic symptoms such as hallucinations and delusions
(Depressive episode-low mood)
* Feeling sad
* Loss of interest in usual activities
* Disrupted sleep and appetite patterns
* Feeling hopeless about the future
* Suicidal thoughts

Ways to cope with it
(Ignored the medicine info)
Coping with problems of Manic Symptoms
* Reduce stimulation- Find a quiet place to spend time; Listen to relaxing music; Avoid making important decisions about your life; Avoid arguments; Avoid alcohol, tea, coffee or drinks containing caffeine or other stimulants
* Excessive energy can be channelled into constructive activities, rather than into impulsive actions that you may regret later- Plan a schedule of daily activites, keep a routine; Tackle one small issue at a time before moving on to the next; Plan regular breaks and exercise; Avoid late night work
* Coping with stresses - Have regular sleep and work habits. Plan periods of relaxation and recreation. This may help to regulate your mood. Know things that may stress you and be ready for them. Learn effective problem-solving skills to meet the challenges of daily life.

TO BE CONTINUE....

Wonder anyone still reading this part...hahas..
Well I just think that some of us might suffer something similar without knowing
Prevent better than cure.
Take note of family and friends around you...do show concern k ^.^
End here, will be sharing more in next post...

2009-08-20T01:26:00.002+08:00

What else can i say now?
Emo-over?
Yeah i guess so...
Well 4 down, last one to go...
Need to get things RIGHT and back to normal le...
Before i get the Bipolar Disoder...Shall share more info of it in the next post...hehes

EFMA on wednesday is really the worst for me...
The paper itself is simply TOUGH
A sleepless night before the paper..
Or i should say I had adjust my whole time schedule for the sake of exam!
Sleep @ the non-sleeping time...Study @ the sleeping time..
Diarrhoea after reaching school before paper start...
The worry of unable to finish the paper really =X
haix...................

Just some "different" stuff for my blog..

hahas, i somehow dig this bear out from my soft-toy graveyard..'she' so cute la..so decide to show off abit here.. =P

Wondering what is this? Well it is a kiosk machine in Singhealth Polyclinic @ Queenways

A nice clinic, got all the friendly staff, and i think i spotted a cute boy there...oops =D
hmmm, visit there cause accompany parents bring Hui-jie go for her regular appointment..
Saw these cute art-works in display on sales...
These nice works are done by the patient that recieving "creative therapy" there.
It remain me of someone who is so idiot, althou it is more den 6mth since that event...but i'll rmb and hate him forever...
Hope people or at least friends that reading my blog will be friendly enough to show care or dun look down or joke on people with intellectual disable!

LAstly, a pic of me with that mask full with medicine smell..
I think i look btr in mask den without mask..hahas =P

OK..shall end here, Darlings 们 all the best for ur exam k...<3

2009-08-16T21:39:00.000+08:00

我又再崩溃了
我压抑的太多太多
我放任的太少太少
我使自己一无所成
我让自己一败涂地
我看不清我要的是什么
我看清后也没努力争取
我不停的让自己往下跌
跌到那不知多深的苦渊
那渊的峭壁是如此的窄
容不下第二个人的存在
它窄到只要我伸出手
就能停止一切
然后能往上爬
可我没那么做
我不知道
我好溅阿!!!!!!!!

存在为了什么。。。“如果未来已在昨天计划好，那今生是否已在前世注定?"

2009-08-13T20:44:00.000+08:00

zzZZzz
I dunno when my body start to react to 1 formula...
which i name it "S"s formula
"S"s formula = Stress --> Sleep
Been pig-ing none stop...
My brain suck...Suck like hell
After memorizing the law by law stuff
Simply cant absorb the Marketing Management
PRay hard tmr after Law need to immediately chiong MM
Didnt start on the EFMA and B.Fin too..
Not much worry abt the 2...haix..
PLEASE, LAW must get over soon and MUST do well...

Cat-Jie very cute la...
Going Genting this weekend (play hard k)
den kept sms ask did i study not...kept remind me abt Uni
Yes Yes got do my best le but i'm nt smartdo..
sobsob =(
Papa out of sudden ask me go check gt wad kind of Uni Scholarship available
haix...to be honest given with my current grade.
SO LOUSY i kinda stress with their reminder and future planning..
Feel like telling them i got my own planS..but dunno why 开不了口..
sobsob =(
Exam suck...my brain sux...MYSELF MOST SUCK!!!!

2009-08-12T01:20:00.003+08:00

attempt to study hard..
yeah i did...
ended up almost sleep, hence mummy advice me to take a break 1 day...
slow down my plan and all in the mess..
is okay..at least i had manage to memorize all the law words by words...
pray hard it will stay in my mind till friday!
Marketing management..I'm here for u!
Co-operate with me k..dun tire me out...dun stress me out...
Love u like hell hor...<3

Had LEVEL UP all the neccessary,
so that when CAt-jie will not be affected too much for next week...
Goodbye facebook...haix...if not u gg to put me into trouble la!!
I want my $1500 and a $100++ present...
hehe...GAMBATEH!

Told ZW coach last wk that i gg to miss 2wks training...
So sorry...when i'm already the worst in understanding and controling the weapon.
Will work double harder after exam over de...
PRomise to myself!

Talking to mummy and some reflection now...all i wanna say is
"人情留一线，日后好相见"

2009-08-07T01:17:00.004+08:00

First, Thanks and Sorry to all the friends that still willing to login to read my blog!

I think i'm a person who simply can't let my brain stop working even for a seconds. When studying i need to use my brain to understand theory; when wushu i need to use my brain to memorise routine; when facebook i need to think how to maxismise my "profit" and level up asap; when resting i just can't help but kept reflecting......Poor brain has such an owner like me.. =(

Happening, as usual in my life...
Studies is simply in PERFECT condition now, really glad and hope i can do well like last sem!
Wushu, the 棍 is not that easy now! Really need to work hard and Thanks the coach for being so patient, can see he almost wanna vomit blood like that! and fellow mates who had learnt before to assist me...Will Jiayou for that...
REally no life for me, other den wushu and studies nth more to share.

Happening stuff is always reflecting stuff...
Recently (actually is this wk only la) i back to GOSSIP-ing
Get to know so much more about what is happening!
Not taking in heart but got an urge to find out how everyone react..
SO ya I go and "spread" news and "dig" news...
YES! everyone react differently...I know some people might find me weird..
But i just think that it is a way for me to know more about people management.
Anyway is obvious that everyone will react differently cause that's wad make everyone unique!

Well...just now when i back home, saw a title in the newspaper...
A mother had lost her limbs for the sake to save her daughters. I stare at the picture thinking the family look so familiar, so read on more...Yeah i'm right this mother stay around my neighbourhood and i gt play with the 2 little girls before la! Although just some "stranger" but still feel sad somehow...
Second news being told by my mummy.. and she started off by telling dun be 幸灾乐祸 upon knowing. Quite shocked and really wonder what is it about. And it turned out to be my non-blood related cousin is currently lying in GH now. Well I told my mummy i wun be 幸灾乐祸 as he nvr did anything bad to me just that i dun understand why he choose such a path. Now that he is "sleeping" there not knowing if he could survive the next moment or will he survive and remain vegetarian or some handicapped man. Pity my 二姑 although last time dun like her, but just wish that she can cope and hang on there. Also wish that he could survive with FULL recover, otherwise i rather he 长痛不如短痛...

Life is just so unpredictable. the year of 2009 i already see and know lots of unfortunate thing. I see how people react and cope with those, some face it positively, so overreacting even after a long long period of time...there is no rights and wrong...I can't do anything except being 感慨..
人生就是如此...

2009-07-31T22:09:00.000+08:00

圣人和笨蛋之间原来存在着一个等号
看似已经开窍，聪明，平易近人
但事实上正在陷入无止尽的漩涡
漩涡的力量让人难以承受
可想当圣人的笨蛋就是无法自拔
渴望的只是最初的单纯

我不知道我能让自己傻多久
开始了，希望能走到最后
以往的问号不再缠着我
结束了，祈祷不会重来
要的快乐，要的幸福，要的体谅
我会努力的去把你们带到我身边。。。。。

2009-07-30T13:33:00.003+08:00

Hihi...I'm So Happy!
The NORMAL me is finally back!

Health is still bad =X but i'm still handling well..
Promised mummy a full body check-up after exam over...
Praying hard no BIG problem in me...

STUDIES is ROX....like real!
Last Project to chiong...Sorry that i didn't contribute much!
Will do my best for tt report la...Paiseh!
WAOHOOOOO!! i finally Late and sleep in Lectures and Tutorials again...
Long long nvr do such thing i tot i abnormal le la!!

Wushu! Wushu!! WUSHU!!
Wheee...missed last wk training due to battery flat..
So promised myself this wk MUST go and MUST concentrate!
Bad bad left leg...stretch abit jiu cramp!!!
Nid to go need sinseh also!
OMG i gg to trap with medicine soon???praying hard!
Good good training!
Altho i nid to roll my eyeballs downward to recall dao routine..
But at least, i can complete the routine!
Old problem happen...功架，力度，平衡...=X
Learn 棍 last night...really enjoying...
Long long nvr so enjoy liao...
it is a must to master 棍 if i want to do well in my ideal weapon!
Jiayou! Jiayou! GAMBATEH!

Facebook is simply making me crazy...
Must apply self discipline again...
In order to achieve my wishlist..
Recall a slogan!
" NEVER SAY DIE! I WILL SURVIVE!!"

Ending here...tatas ^.^

2009-07-26T18:32:00.002+08:00

Finally changed my Blogskin le!
Yeah Yeah, the outdated television had been removed...
No More weird and troublesome...It's just simple..

Recently blogger seem to be having BAD TEMPERED!
I attempt to post something few days back..but failed..
Anyway glad that i failed to post it..
So many things happened! So many reflections...
But all I wanna do now is to keep my mind shut from everything and focus on the exam!
Results are really bad this sem...Got to throw in my best before i regret..

A very important things to post, which previously kept failing!
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO BENEDICT -> 21July
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UNCLE STEVEN -> 22July
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY DARLING HAZEL -> 23July...
Happy happy k ^.^

Next will be for Sikai-"JieJie"
He had flew to mel for his further studies...Wish him all the best,and lots of TC!

Alright i shall end here...Tatas!

2009-07-18T02:34:00.002+08:00

Another week past, all i can say is "有惊无险，又到周末！"

Kind of real tired with little sleeping hours...

Blame no one but my inefficiency, and bad self-discipline...

Still glad that ESSRS ICA2 is OVER!

So Sorry that SWOT is weak as it is done by me...hope wun affect the grade, REAL SORRY!

Next MM ICA2 Project Report had handed in on time..

But still got Presentation on coming wednesday!

Jiayou! and I think is really nice working with a foreign student as i really get to learn alot..

Today ICT ICA on excel ROX my world! 10% hope i can score full...high chance sia! Yipee!

However 2 more ICA paper and 1 ICA quiz + 1 ppt next wk...

OMAN! So many more, and counting down 3wks to study wk, 5more to exam!

1 Sem is going to over soon, nth much had done!

Back to the same old stories..hahas =P

Well, got short short reflection for my CCAs again.

First of coz about wushu, all i can say is passion is still there..

But i'm just simply too tired, such as this wed i only gt 2hrs slp + something happened!

I can predict now that I gg to hear my name being called again and again next wk training!

Just hope that the wk after next everything is done, den i can perform well again!

Hearing my name so many times within 2hrs...is nth nice and feel so extreme Paiseh sia!

Next is SBM club, long long nvr go KPO/ attend their stuff

Still got receive email from President...however i wonder 1 thing!

If they really treasure and fair to everyone, den why Cihui de email is still tt wrong de?

When we specifically leave a msg to ask for "NOTICE"

Well, if i can let go abit for wushu i think SBM! Gdbye...^^

Wow! got to go play abit more..

Lots of plan ahead for next 3 days before tuesday come again..

Bye!

2009-07-14T23:10:00.003+08:00

Alright, back to blog today. Many things had happened in the pass few days. My mind is in a mess, my heart is sanking and flooding having no idea of where to be, my body is weak...BUT THANKS GOODNESS, everything is over le!

Last wk lesson is kind of blank for me...Promises i made on thursday, i only start to move towards it TODAY! Well, glad it started off today and not later. I've to thanks 1person for helping me to calm down, that person is PHYLLIS. Really happy to have her as my friend, is amazing how close our thinking can be, and we actually ...................(secret that i promise cant say) But any drinks seem to be cant taste better than my favourite hot-lemon tea with Phyllis chatting with me...(darlings and lao po dun jealous hor!)

Next, I wanna *clap clap* for myself. 2yrs ago, along the same road I question and answer myself what i want, decision made and finalise...leading me to where I'm who I'm now... Now along the same round, I question myself again about what is the most desired things i want for my LIFE! Answer is out again, and another significant decision was made again! Yeah, gonna have faith in my own answer that really from deep of my heart, although it might cause some regret but somehow as we grow older, more choices in front, choosing and letting go...sadness and regret are things that cant be avoided...What we can do is only reducing it to the minimum! I'll be BACK to the same again! "3.5 wait for me, Golds wait for me, I'M HERE FOR u all!!!"

Today is a nice nice day too...Lesson is good, ICCM ICA1 got a B+, Thanks Mr Hang nvr judge with the presentation only. BizLaw that new tutor is really =X, fallen asleep in class till i cant stand her pace den force myself to wake up answer all her question. To my classmates: "I'm nt trying to show off, i simply want the class to end asap only! " ESSRS as ususal but Ms Lee bad bad lar =X
BADMINTON COMPETITION! First time participate in such competition play double with cihui... Cihui really play well and got strategies some more! She made a GRANT entrance to the court, den start the first serves by kissing the shuttle cock..Catching so much attention la! hahas, Thank to her skill, strategies and kept calling my name, we lead lar! BUT our cute cute CIHUI play till half way, when games almost end (we are till leading), turn around and tell everyone to wait den ask me tmr got Project meeting no time for another match...With this, i guess everyone can guess wad's the end result la...=P Anw, really enjoy the match cause learn something again! Look forward to next badminton session ^.~

Tmr is wednesday, Wushu session at night..not gg for lunch time performance coz decision is made! hahas, dun think gg to have any project meeting for me..although is not complete but everyone dealing their part...me waiting to summarize whole thing...Hope smoothly done and able to hand in on time...=X

Long post sia! ending here to watch my favourite YOUNG YANG WARRIORS again! bye...

2009-07-09T20:02:00.002+08:00

WA! I really in bad luck this 2 days la...
BUT surprisingly i react it with my crazyness =X

Wed bad event:
Early in the morning heard a gal scold CB...as if she dun have it!
Breakfast got a BL guy coughing at me...thinking very cool?
Got back MM ICA1..just pass thanks to Ms Lee de lenient la...
Wasted 2smses in the noon...sms is precious to me if over use will kanna scolding de la!
Night training, i think i'm the worse among my batch de...brain aint working sia!

Wed reaction to event:
Ignore...first time nvr even turn back to throw her dirty look...
Ignore and go on with crazy talk with my crazy gals...
Laugh and go on with facebook wor...
Think of wad that idiot actually doing den have a GOOD laugh =X
Actually dun care and go on crap with my gals...hahas

Thurs bad event and reaction:
1 is more than enough le...
SUPER PAISEH la.. haiz...really super famous liao i think?!
Anyway dun affect me too...Huili think i really not right liao..=P

Odear...Wad's going on? Wad am i typing? CK read le might say animal language again!
Well, i noe well wad's gg on...
Mr Fate i had gotten the hint hint le...and i guess u had heard my promise too le...
haiz...got to put the naughty "yellow lady" to sleep and wake the pure innocent yanyan up...=p
hahas...with this! i shall announce no more blogging and no more den 2hrs facebook from tmr onwards...
This post will be here for 1wk den blog gg to close down again...^.~

2009-07-06T18:37:00.002+08:00

Less and less movtivated to blog le...
Anyway, wanna say

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAREST XIAOJUAN..

18th Year Old Galgal le!

STay Young, Cute and Gossipful

Ytd really had a nice morning all my darling + ben

Happy hours together without fail with them..

Sher had made a cake for juan, yummy yummy= next time can be gd wife

Hazel & Ben cooked "mee suan"...Amazed by Ben he actually can cook btr den dear...

Me try to peel the shell of hard-boil egg...sorry that it didnt appear to be beautiful as it suppose..

Poor GongKia and Meowmeow...dear dog and cat

Gongkia kanna locked in the room cause of my visit.

Meowmeow scared me twice and I shocked him twice too..

It just so funny =.="

Another thing to mention, is our gossip hour...

Sher is having lots of 桃花运 as usual, good good!

"Gal if u think Ben is right, den reply soon...reply le much let sis here know k...^.~"

Hazel and Ben, hehehes...i wish............................

"Dear u noe what i mean, but i dun wanna say much...let u 2 顺其自然..hahas"

Xiaojuan, our BIRTHDAY GAL...when is ur turn we are waiting la...

"Gal dun try to ask me the same qns, i told sher now i want to be 你们的媒婆，next 伴娘, den 你们的孩子的干妈。。。hahas..dun make me wait too long k...^.^"

WA..longlong post...going to study for ICCM ICA for tmr, and stupid presentation all so last minute....KNS...hahas...Goodbye...

2009-07-01T12:36:00.003+08:00

F*UK the elearn program la!
Got to do all the tutorial of every modules!
Do tutorial aint a problems but why all deadline today...
Shit them till hell!
Elearn program cause me kanna lock in the house...
相见容易，相处难。。。
I'm might be smart but that doesn't mean i know EVERYTHING!
Why are you always asking things that beyond my knowledge..
then accuse that me not willing to help!
I wake up to do work...stupid idiot F*CKing work....
Yet before anything get started i get your lecture first!
Sux that elearn program can't go back to sch!
Causing my MM project meeting cancel again, I dun even know where the rest stop at
Wad they collected...how to "do" my survey
Wushu training also cancel due to this reason!
SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
I rather kana swine flu and DIE den stay at home another 1 whole wk and miss 1 wk training.
You say outsider btr den u, willing to explain and patient to u!
But do u know outsider wun stress or scold me when i in bad mood without me doing anything mean yet...
You are disappointed but aint i feel upset too????

2009-06-28T21:10:00.002+08:00

Gal i know u wun be reading this...
tt's why i dare to post it up...
Only if 1day u really saw this..
i wonder u gg to be damn touched or gg to KILL me!!!
All I wanna say is =>

PHYLLIS 我爱死你了!!

you enlighten me without knowing u had do so!

Bring me out from my so-called 恶魔!

Love u lotsa!!!

2009-06-27T20:00:00.006+08:00

I'M HAPPY! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY............

Happy Event No.1

3 out of 4 projects done!

Amazing Thanks to Cihui-Dajie!

Seem like the deadline for project DID NOT extend like the so call "holiday"

Anyway Marketing Management is in the mid-of-CHIONGING

No Cihui with me for this project...But i trust my LADY WARRIORS!

Jiayou Jiayou AND JIAYOU!!!

Happy Event No.2

Quite Simple...Also relate to my Project

Ytd instead of gg to Suntec & PS we decide to go back to sch and do our interview!

And YES super right CHOICE!

Interviewed a group of lecturers...(1of them is TEP lecturer la!)

They simply so KAWAII, helpful and FRIENDLY!!!

Really Thanks their help..

Next we met a guy that came to school and collect survey!

Guess what?! He actually "$7.80" Cihui...

Wanted to give her b.d present, know where she work and stay..

OMG! Me and Huili Have a GOOD LAUGH la...

Anyway that guy name "PATRICK"

Ladies and Gentlemen if someone ask u do survy abt saving...

DUN DO! is a survey from AIA new program...=X

They will call and promote their new stuff..

My feel is "DUN LIKE IT!"

Thanks Huili^^

Happy Event No.3

Saw Phyllis Again last night...

I know that gal must be complaining why so suay..hahas..

Nice Chat...den more surprise from her...

SHE HAD CHANGED SO MUCH IN HER MINDSET TOWARDs _ _ _

The only thing she never change is suaning how childish and "sua gu" i'm!

Tell her everytime i see art i think of her...

YET she say everytime kanna beat by people den will think of me!

Sad La..but i still love talking to her!

and THANK GAL for keeping me accompany!!!

Happy Event No.4

NEW television had came in today!

Now my house got a total of 3 television..1 bigger than the other!

2 in use now + 1 DVD player + 1 new recorder

Can imagine how many thing in my living room bah!

Just hope that this will not lead to unhappy event...=X

Happy Event No.5

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO 3 姑!!

19th yr old le!

Although never celebrate with you..but still happy for u!

MUST REMEMBER the content in the msg!

Especially the last part k...hahas..

That shall be ur goal by next yr de today...kk ^.~

YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

hmmm...2 nice coincidence happened ytd

Saw his msg when i counting down how many days to his department!

He called when Phyllis accompany me, cause me kanna suan by her thoughout!

I nvr think so much, just glad he is in happy life now..

And he still rmb me =P

Sorry, i was and i'm and i'll still be a bad sister!

I just wish to his sister forever...

Hope friends stop guessing or asking me that qns, even if it might be true..hahas

Anyway the other is kind of driving me a bit crazy...

I think only cihui-dajie know all and all...=X

Just hope school start soon den i'll be even more busy..

Jiu wouldn't online all day round...

But sometime i really wonder!!!

2009-06-25T13:39:00.007+08:00

SO many things had happened since I last blogged...
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Sunday is still alright...Monday-Wednesday is really driving me crazy!
Everyday slept at 3.30am and wake up latest 8am...
Dunnoe y i suddenly so guai, no longer sleep in lecture le...
Only slp in class when i had done all my work, waiting for tutor to go thru!
_
Monday....
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince!
Mummy & papa a bit _______ so end up only me n papa watching
Cat-Jie pei mummy @ home!
Nice Show but i expect MORE...hehes...
Really make me LAX abit from the proj stuff...
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Tuesday is Long Bad day!
Early in the morning thought rushing to school, forgt to lock the door!
Lucky i feel smth wrong when reached the void deck, quickly go back and lock..
Otherwise going to get scolding la!
REach school den realise ICCM lecture is cancel..
Blame no one but myself being so blur like sotong...
And also..Something happened!
I Just dun understand wad causes someone to change so much..
But i will not go WASTE my time to find out as it doesn't concern abt me...
Initially tot sent a msg to explain BUT receive the same RUDE msg like wad cihui get!
U might be GENIUS in study, but seriously Childish in thinking...
Anyway still thank u for giving us a chance to have a good talk with Mr Hang & Mr Phang..
CHatting with tutors will always allow me to learn something
and ALLOW me to think den more MATURE!
ICCM ICA3! GAMBATEH! WE will definitely still do well no matter wad!
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Wednesday...What shld i say? Body battery remain with 25% when come sch @ 8am...
Tanhan...all the way till MM Presentation over!
Freak sia, the presentation is like _____
I shiver from head to toes...Lousy me...
Rush home after everything, quick lunch (maggie from 7-11)
Den rush to J8 and pass Hazel present back to Juan..
[Dear, i'll like to slap u when see u next timek!...haha]
Chiong to Tiong Bahru to collect my last batch of wages...
Battery life= 10%
OMAN...
had a quick msg with serene...she say nvr bring knee guard considering gg training nt..
Den msg Liping..she say abt to msg me tt she's nt gg to training as battery also flated + ICAs !
So despite already in all the correct attire...I went back home...
hmmm, i wonder am i reading too much into just some simple thing...
All i can say is I do understand that Yr 3 students are getting busier and Yr 2 shld b ready for smth...I believe that there are ppl alr fully ready to take it!
And I'll like to say Sorry to JULY and AUGUST BABies...
As there wun be any celebration before Late August...
IF anyone wish to eat cakes n celebrate for the 10babies earlier and FREE enough,
Do let me noe..hopefully can do smth about it...
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Thursday..
Still going thru..
Late for 8am tutorial today..Lucky tt tutor wun mark ppl late de...
But so sry that i cant answer ur qns like past few wks as i had made mistakes in my ans!
EFMA ICA3...stress! Really got no confidence in answering..
Praying hard that i can get at least a 25/35 (28 and above will be even btr..LOL)
Lectures ltr...2 more ICAs to go for this wk...
Battery recover to 70%...but stupid Gloria Jean new workers...
Dunno how to mix drink...if nt my battery will be 100% le la...
Bad management, how i wish got feedback form for me to feedback...GRrrrr!
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Alright, signing off here...Tatas

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BENEDICT-> 22 JULY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UNCLE STEVEN ->23 JULY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HAZEL DEAR!! ->24 JULY...WHICH IS TODAY!!

2009-06-25T13:39:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BENEDICT-> 22 JULY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UNCLE STEVEN ->23 JULY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HAZEL DEAR!! ->24 JULY...WHICH IS TODAY!!